*Reposting because I accidently posted this on the spam dump board*
I feel like diaryposting again as of an hour ago.
Last night I fell asleep early unintentionally and had a weird dream about cuddling in my grandparents bed with one of the characters from the TV show "Gilmore Girls". It was very uncomfortable.
My boyfriend got home from work (security nightshift) and when I got out of english he left me a bunch of messages about wanting to kill himself, but by the time I saw him he was already sleeping.
I was supposed to stay after because tonight is dress rehearsal for a band concert I have but I didn't because I am a rebel.
On the way home from school I was bored so I kicked the seat of the person in front of me. I thouroughly enjoy passive aggressive bus games, like sitting in people's seats or kicking their seat and watch them be pissed but too timid to confront me. And the thing is, if they did confront me, I would probably submit and quit kicking their seat. But they never do LOL. They will sigh and try and lean their back against the window, but they never confront me. Its a battle of who is the ballsiest. One kid did get mad and slammed his back into the seat, but that doesn't really effect me, lol. He is stupid and it took him like 3 days to learn not to sit there anymore. He was the reason I started the game, because early in the morning he always would swing in the seat in front of me like a fucking monkey or something and annoy me.
I got home and my mom was there, which annoyed and suprised me. When my mom works I usually call my boyfriend and she was supposed to be at work until 7. It turned out she collapsed at work this morning, supposedly from dehydration, but I kinda think she faked fainting or something to get out of work. My grandma tells me how she used to fake weird ailments when she was in her teens, like pretending to be paralyzed.
My boyfriend woke up when I got home and I tried to be as nice as possible, and that worked for a bit until he spilled water or something stupid then he threw another fit. Oh boy I can't wait in 1 year when I am a punching bag for all my psycho husband's anger issues (that was a joke he is always nice to me bur gets angry easily).

actually, bloggings should be in /free/.


rules are rules

i'm a gay tranny who sucks cock

P35216 HOW DARE YOU! My posts / boards are of high-quality!!!

/misc/ is full of spams anyways while /free/ is immaculate.

P35226 P35227 Fagmin's point of view be like "OK let's discriminate, /misc/ is for anime spammers while /free/ is for historical spammers..."

and fagmin's decision is not wrong. Historicalfag posts should be filtered out.

P35228 sod off! ye anime activist!!! Historical pictures are way more pleasant to look at than those of low quality cartoon pictures!

The modern admin's boards are cancer! Historicalchan's /free/ rules the waves!!!!

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oh hi
Is she still making you take antidepressants against your will? Effexor is unsafe stuff. Apologies in advance for the link dumping
https://www.cdc.gov/ncbddd/birthdefects/features/venlafaxine-during-pregnancy.html
https://www.drugwatcher.org/effexor/
And there are guidelines for how to dodge getting sued after prescribing it.
All of them are basically like that. Also antidepressants work by blocking the ability to feel emotions including empathy ( https://www.madinamerica.com/2019/07/antidepressants-blunt-ability-feel-empathy/ ), it's called emotional blunting, you've probably heard of it and it doesn't sound like something that would be good for romantic relationships (however I am not saying you lack empathy). Strange dreams is a listed side effect. And (ok, this one is a ridiculous stretch and I'm not really being serious, calling kicking a bus seat as a game "violence" but still) https://healthland.time.com/2011/01/07/top-ten-legal-drugs-linked-to-violence/ effexor is #9 in the top 10. Also, your bf sounds perfectly nice, I'm sure he is, but personally I wouldn't suggest marrying him.

P35244
[bold: Pornography consumption negatively impacts adolescents’ self-esteem and mental health:] https://fightthenewdrug.org/fast-fact-19/

P35232
Gno, there should be peace and love between the sexes.

P35247
Who dis?

P35251
Porn consumption is linked to poorer relationship quality: https://fightthenewdrug.org/fast-fact-32/

P35251 it is Mrs. Dis - The God of neglectism

P35253
ok

P35255 although he is not handsome but that stovepipe hat sure makes him looks "handsome"

the link works! Anyways where are you newfags coming from?

P35258
#!/usr/bin/python3

from selenium import webdriver
from selenium.webdriver.support.select import Select
import datetime
import subprocess
import string
import random
import time

import warnings
warnings.filterwarnings("ignore", category=DeprecationWarning)

def register(username, password):
options = webdriver.ChromeOptions()
options.add_argument('headless')
options.add_argument('window-size=1200x900')
options.add_argument('proxy-server=socks5://127.0.0.1:9090')
options.add_argument('user-agent="Mozilla/5.0"')
driver = webdriver.Chrome(chrome_options=options)
driver.delete_all_cookies()
driver.get('https://jabberix.com/new')
print("Attempting to make new user")
usernameBox = driver.find_element_by_css_selector('input[name=username]')
usernameBox.send_keys(username.strip())
passwordBox = driver.find_element_by_css_selector('input[name=password]')
passwordBox.send_keys(password.strip())
passwordBox2 = driver.find_element_by_css_selector('input[name=password2]')
passwordBox2.send_keys(password.strip())
# botTest = driver.find_element_by_css_selector('input[name=captcha_reply]')
# captchaGet = (str(driver.find_element_by_xpath("/html/body").text)).split()
# captcha = " ".join(captchaGet[3:6])[:-1]
# captchaAnswer = str(eval(captcha))
# botTest.send_keys(captchaAnswer.strip())
driver.find_element_by_css_selector('input[type=submit]').click()
print(driver.find_element_by_xpath("/html/body").text)

cmd = 'xkcdpass -n 90 '.split()
genpost = str(str(subprocess.run(cmd,capture_output=True).stdout)[2:-3])

usernames = ["testing", "apple"]
randomUsername = random.choice(usernames)
N = 4
P = 5
res = ''.join(random.choices(string.digits, k=N))
res2 = ''.join(random.choices(string.ascii_uppercase + string.digits, k=P))
newusername = str(randomUsername + res)
newpasswd = str("asshole" + res2)

register(newusername, newpasswd)
print("new username is " + newusername)
print("new password is " + newpasswd)
with open('/tmp/username.txt', 'w') as f:
f.write(newusername)
with open('/tmp/passwd.txt', 'w') as g:
g.write(newpasswd)

Excellent thread.
Peak lambda experience.

P35272
thank you for making me laugh

P35232
Thats so sexy
Yes please
P35244
No I have been off all antidepressants for a while.
>Also antidepressants work by blocking the ability to feel emotions including empathy
The most common ones (SSRIs, though I was on an SNRI) work by preventing seratonin from being reabsorbed, meaning there is more present in the synaptic cleft, so it binds to the synapse more often triggering the effects it produces. In theory it
is supposed increase positive emotions because it is treating a "deficiency" of seratonin (or norepinephrine). I know some meds for schizophrenia like risperidone can cause that effect because their goal is to decrease dopamine in the brain which is linked with schizophrenia, but idk ahout SSRIs. Either way, I think they are largely ineffective because most depression isn't a fucking seratonin deficiency and is a result of poor environment, hard times, or in the case of a lot of teens beinf medicated just being teenagers. Yet they are dispensed like candy and is a complete cashgrab.
>And (ok, this one is a ridiculous stretch and I'm not really being serious, calling kicking a bus seat as a game "violence" but still)
I do think I kinda lack empathy to a degree but I have always been like that and my empathy isn't completely absent or severely deficient. I don't consider the bus thing violence but I am a violent person, but I haven't taken anti depressants in a while.

Maybe the correlation between these things is because depression causes these, and the anti deps they are taking just aren't working because they are a scam.
I think meds can be helpful for people who have genuine brain abnormalities but most on them do not.
>Also, your bf sounds perfectly nice, I'm sure he is, but personally I wouldn't suggest marrying him.
Why?

>I think they are largely ineffective because most depression isn't a fucking seratonin deficiency and is a result of poor environment, hard times, or in the case of a lot of teens beinf medicated just being teenagers.
based and redpilled
finally someone else who has seem the light
wait, was i the one who redpilled you on that?
i remember a few months ago a bunch of faggots were posting something about meds and shit, and i ranted about why meds are fake and gay bc getting sad when your life sucks is a normal and expected reaction
meds are just a duct tape that dont really solve anything
except maybe getting you more docile and properly cattlified

>I have been off all antidepressants for a while
That's very good news.

>Why?
Well, was it you he got mad when he spilled the water? That sounds really unreasonable. Not to mention water is the most innocuous liquid to spill, it just dries up and doesn't leave any residue. But even sugary drinks or something difficult.. It's just something that requires a quick reaction to try and make the best of it. "Oh shit I spilled some water, I'll call you back ok?"... or if you're really in love with the person you might put the phone to one side but keep the call going while you dry it so it's not like you're leaving them alone or starting from cold when you have dealt with the water.

mad at*

P35394
No but I think we talked about this on phichannel when I was asking how to avoid taking my meds.
A very small, tiny percentage of the population NEED meds like my mother who goes absolutely insane when off her like 7 different scripts...she had been off them for a few months and had anxiety attacks that she went to the ER for...or maybe that was her ICU job she took and could not handle. Who knows! She got her meds refilled now but they need time to take effect

Also nasty comments when you have PMDD, I would never do that. I would be talking about how much I love you and my deepest desires and doing the best I could to make you comfy.

P35398
He wasn't mad at me over the water, just in general. I agree its ridiculous and he over reacts. That is how its been with everything, every minor nuisance makes him lose his fucking mind. Its tiresome. Hoping it gets better.

P35402
He isn't nasty lol, not at all
I would tell you I hate you, try and breakup with you, then threaten to cheat on you

P35216
Actually disregard that post, I suck cocks.

P35406
I would feel even more devoted to you and turned on. And I would tell you that I still love you no matter what

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Antidepressants are NPC pills. They switch off entire subsystems of what makes you human, if you were human to begin with. Ever notice how head med poppers aren't autistic or eccentric, but normie as fuck? That's what a normie is. Rejoice that you're not a normie.

P35947
It's concerning how large portion of American take SSRIs and how unstudied their connection is to highly increased aggression as their potential side-effect.

P35952
That would explain the extreme levels of passive aggression I've seen just about everywhere, but especially in the past few years. Lockdowns put a lot of people on NPC pills, or higher doses of them.

P35930
Fucking shit, what the fuck am I reading?
Getting turned on?

Take this cringe shit out of here.
What a creep.

P35945
What's your problem?
Do you consider the underage girls from the database that you maintain as objects as well?

P35947
>head med poppers aren't autistic or eccentric, but normie as fuck?
>noooo I've become normal I lost my ebin quirky maniac pixie dream girl superpowers nobody will want to have sex with me anymore
Fuck you.

P36009 creep really is creep

P36009
You are obviously homo. Lol what a fag.

P36009
Does that weighty tome on your desk, "Shibboleth Mastery: The Textbook of American Liberal Opinions to Express", the one you are currently studying, really place such a high importance on cheerleading for the pharmaceutical industry? Well, I guess it would almost make sense for it to include that, but eh...

P36014
He really is.

P35497
Scientifically speaking, that is the point of antidepressants.

P35403
What happens if a toddler throws her lunch at the TV and unexpectedly it breaks? mad@toddler.com?

I need a place to scream into the void where people don't feel obligated to reply to my ranting, and idk where else to go.
Basically my relationship is over for good this time I think.
A lot of things have happened over the last 7 months that led to its downfall, after the death of his sister I guess we both got more and more unstable and depressed and just made eachother worse, I will admit its mostly my fault and I did lots of really shitty things.
The last few weeks his depressive meltdowns have been exhausting, I remember last night he was bitching at me about how he wanted to khs and it just wouldn't end and I was so fucking tired and sleep deprived it felt like pure torture.
The catalyst was about 6 days ago. I was at school in the morning eating breakfast and some kid who had previously given me 2 other notes with his phone number which said he thought I was pretty gave me another one. It was more detailed I'll include a pic. Anyways I decided to try and befriend him because this one wasn't didnt sound romantic or anything, so the following monday I gave him a reply and a way for him to contact me. I thought it was nice he wrote a letter and idk maybe its time to try and make real friends.
My bf was flippin out from the beginning because "what if hes a threat!!!". I told him to be happy for me, he told me to get female friends.
Anyway, somehow, I don't fucking know how he dug up a pic of the letter from months ago with the phone number included and fucking messaged this kid telling him "get a hint, she isn't interested, she didn't reply to your first 2 letters" AFTER I TOLD HIM NOT TO EVER DO THAT. Idk how he got that pic I didn't include the number in the shot of the picture I sent him, i dont even remember taking that other one.
The kid was understanding and nice to me about all of it and but I was so mad at my boyfriend. He told this kid I have problems and just betrayed me and I felt like such shit. Anyway weve been broken up since them he keeps threatening to khs but I cant bear this relationship where we make eachother worse constantly.
And I am afraid to leave him behind. Honestly i am so pessimistic about his future I am scared he will never be happy and I feel obligated to be in his life to hold him together because I fuckef up some aspects of his life.
And hes my best friend and I cant bear the thought of being away from him. He knows me better than anyone and I feel so comfortable with him.
I wish i could go back and fix what I did wrong.
I talked to the kid today during my free period. He gave me a chocolate bar and a coin from his coin collection. I felt guilty and a chocolate bar has never felt more unappetizing, if it were any other I would have ate it by now but I feel repelled from it.
And we had a nice talk but immediately after I got sad and felt like crying because I missed my bf.
Part of me wants to pursue a normal relationship, but I feel intrinsically tied to my ex bf.
Idk why the other kid is interested anyways, I should probbaly stay away from him before I crush his soul too lol
Woe is me
Wow that was all very serious tone I should be more lighthearted it makes me look like a faggot whining like a bitch
On and off I wanna die but then I wanna live but then I wanna die again
My soul hurts

P44346
I can't imagine him writing that if he wasn't romantically interested in you.

>Basically my relationship is over for good this time I think.
this shit again?
nah youll be back together again before the end of the month
im willing to bet dollars to doughnuts on this one
>He gave me a chocolate bar and a coin from his coin collection.
wtf how do you keep getting more and more simps to simp for you you fucking stacy get out reeeeeeeeeee

I ate the chocolate bar. Turns out it was just a chocolate bar and I was being dramatic again, silly me
P44347
Yeah youre right males always have ulterior motives grr
He is very nice though seems very morally solid I guess and has said a bunch of things about treating people nice, apparently he had a bad time at his old school or something and thats where it comes from(I assume he was bullied, I didn't ask because I assumed he didn't wanna tell but maybe he did wanna tell but didn't wanna start rambling at a stranger he just met like a weirdo).
Maybe he will bring out the best in me or maybe I will suck the life out of him like the evil demon I am :^)
P44356
I knew you would say this
No its really over though. It kinda feels like we are still together when we are chatting like good times and he will think its blown over and tell me he loves me but I remind him its not.

I am actually scared about letting him give me gifts
I used to never let my bf give me gifts because I felt bad and didn't wanna feel indebted to him, but eventually i got comfortable and let him
Big mistake, he started guilting me making me feel indebted to him just like I suspected.
Even know I feel indebted to this kid. I can always give the coin back though. Give him a couple dollars for the chocolate bar.

P44346
>some kid who had previously given me 2 other notes with his phone number which said he thought I was pretty gave me another one
>Anyways I decided to try and befriend him because this one wasn't didnt sound romantic or anything
You have a thing for lying to yourself and everyone around you. Just admit it, you know the kid is interested and you're just stringing him along to emotionally fuck with him. On the other hand, he should have taken the hint after the first try.
>Basically my relationship is over for good this time I think.
See you next month. Looking forward to the next "my relationship is over" post.

P44371
Wow youre right actually, im literally awful lol
i probably do enjoy the thrill of emotionally torturing men but wont admit it, probably some repressed narcissistic bs
one more reason not to miss me when i rope, sooner than later (jk thats never going to happen bc im a pussy bitch LMAO)

btw, can you give me examples of when I do this?

>Yeah youre right males always have ulterior motives grr
why would you think otherwise?
i mean 'you strike me as an interesting person', wtf about you looks remotely interesting?
i bet irl you have the figure of a two-by-four and the personality of a hermit crab [spoiler: i saw someone using this insult elsewhere and found it hilarious]
obviously 'interesting' is code for 'has tight pussy'
nobody makes this much of deal out of making a friend
especially someone who (supposedly) already has friends
he clearly wants a taste of that famous babymaking poon from nanochan
>He is very nice though seems very morally solid
definitely a child molester
>Maybe he will bring out the best in me
hoo boy, here we fucking go again
<h-he will fix me!
ig some ppl can never learn

>It kinda feels like we are still together when we are chatting
<still chatting
>N-no its really over though!
tell me this again in a week and maybe ill believe it
looking at you go, i have gotten some insight on the female condition
bitches unironically be believing their own bullshit
>ITS OVER FOR REALZIES THIS TIME! 100%! NO MORE GOING BACK! IM GONNA PLAY SUCCUBUS WITH THIS OTHER BOY NOW!
>t. 8th break up post [spoiler: this year]
imagine fully changing your opinions and beliefs everytime your mood swings
women are fucking insane
honestly, having a bleeding hole on your crotch should be grounds for compulsory admittance into a mental asylum
i used to think i should have maybe tried harder to get bitches
humiliate myself some more
but nah, dropping them as soon as they start showing how much of a fickle cunt they really are is always the right call
i now understand that this is all just a theater they are biologically wired to perform in order to see how much effort the sucker is gonna expend in keeping her
pretend to break up, start flirting with other men, all the while still talking to him
all just to make sure she really got him by the balls and he isnt going anywhere no matter what she does
>Even know I feel indebted to this kid.
stfu, you know you like it, you whore
this is the equivalent of a man complaining a girl have him a handjob for no reason
utter bullshit
>I can always give the coin back though. Give him a couple dollars for the chocolate bar.
you know you wont

>You have a thing for lying to yourself and everyone around you.
its funny to make fun of men when they start thinking with their cocks, but w*men only ever think with their cunts, they literally do not have a functioning brain
>Just admit it, you know the kid is interested and you're just stringing him along to emotionally fuck with him.
this shit is why i dont even bother with femoids anymore
they will derive pleasure from deluding and psychologically abusing poor clueless men, all the while lying to themselves so they dont have to feel guilty about what they are doing

oh and btw
>I thought it was nice he wrote a letter and idk maybe its time to try and make real friends.
>My bf was flippin out from the beginning because "what if hes a threat!!!". I told him to be happy for me, he told me to get female friends.
its not like he is being paranoid for no reason and you know it
and yea, if you think you can make a 'real friend' with a male, you are either lying or feverishly delusional
he is right that you should be going for females instead, at least at first so you can tell how innocent friendships is different from ulteriorly motivated friendships
not that you dont already know he wants to fuck you
i mean,
>He gave me a chocolate bar and a coin from his coin collection.
>his coin collection
i dont expect you to understand this, but a man's collection is very important to him
if he is giving an item of it to you, he defly wants you to bear his offspring
and furthermore, if you cant make friends with females who arent sexually interested in you, it just proves that you have nothing going on for you but the cocksleeve between your legs and should just hang yourself already and stop wasting my fucking precious oxygen, you neep
but dont feel bad for not being a fully realized person, holebearers seldom are
thats why they evolved those onaholes between their legs, to be able to create a parasitic relationship with males, who are the only ones capable of providing anything tangibly worthwhile both physically and mentally
you should still kys tho, but ik you wont

>also why is denpapost an insult?
i have a vague idea, but wanna make you write an extra paragraph for me
>im just quoting your general mood
i actually dont really care whether you truly were feeling like that or not
i just know that presuming to know how you feel annoys you lol
>proof
pulled straight out of my ass bc it pisses you off to no end
it doesnt really have to make sense, it just has to aggravate you

>>g-got him with that one
lol idk i just remember you making that stutterpost when i was being sassy, so im just reposting now



bait so you try to write like me
i score more autismo points the longer your textwall reply to me is
this is the game im playing btw
how much i can get you to write for me
more and longer replies mean more points
and im abusing the fact that, psychologically, ppl react more when they are angry
im basically fedposting at this point lol



>whats the accurate representation of your argument then?
lol dont really care
just wanna milk you for a few extra characters on your reply

>wait wtf is that what we are arguing about?
and by this i mean that im not paying attention at all to whats being discussed
as you can see above, p much everything i write is only to anger you and get you to respond to me
zero intention of making any substantial argument on anything
ever heard of cunninghams law?
i use it to keep you talking to me :^)
thankfully your smug ass cant resist the urge to correct a retard online
as your fellow redditors would say: relevant xkcd https://xkcd.com/386/
btw i know im falling victim to cunninghams law here too, writing an entire secret message just to prove that i can predict your every move
wait is that why im doing this?
*reads previous post*
lol no apparently its to prove that you cant pick up on jokes online and that you are autistic or something
and i said it like im not autistic myself lmfao
internalized NT propaganda ig
lol whatevs writing textwalls is fun, and coming up with troll logic to rebuff everything you say is also fun
...just noticed that im rambling inside the secret message
lmfao sorry i just cant help myself

and here comes the simp squad of one, the white knight rising up to protect his princess with his stacks of neatly (dis)organized quotes from textwalls he has saved over the years while stalking me

damn some of those i wrote for yuki
where is he? its been like over a month, maybe 2
now i miss him again
i should have bullied him more when i had the chance

anxious and feel like vomiting idek why
Usually i can pinpoint the source, rational or not
I remember last time my ex bf came to visit for like 5 straight hours I was in agony from how anxious I was and trying anything to make it stop and doing breathing exercises on youtube
My chest hurt so bad, I felt like I was dying
Then I got in the car with him, and a minute later I suddenly realized it went away and I was like "wtf why do I not feel like I am dying anymore"?
He made me feel better almost instantly.

>have the figure of a two-by-four
My figure is sexy, very greek indeed.
Sure I am slightly chubby but I have giant boobies so its ok
>personality of a hermit crab
Yea tbh but its ok bc men don't care about personality anyways
>especially someone who (supposedly) already has friends
I see him talking to his friend group at least 2x times per day and I listen in on their conversations
>tell me this again in a week and maybe ill believe it
We have been broken up for 3 days, I think thats the longest
>t. 8th break up post
LOL now just imagine all the times we broke up and I didn't post about it, that number would increase drastically
>misogynist dribble
No one cares, you are only good for paying for my pedicures and expensive jewelry.

Bored rn
So my bf finally says he "accepts"that we are broken up but I doubt he does because he asked me to still meet in person in 2 weeks like we planned for "closure"
I am trying to make it clear that we are still broken up and not to expect me to change my mind when seeing him in person, because I won't (but I actually might I am weak like that).
He seems overall stable and hasn't dumped any suicidal bullshit on me.
Really disappointed in him because he kept asking me about the state of our relationship
"what's gonna happen to our friendship when one of us moves on and sees someone else"
And I DONT FUCKING KNOW if he cant handle talking to me or vice versa he doesn't need to be my fucking friend (but I'm gonna fall apart if I can't be his because I need him in my life).
THEN he asks me
"what about sex, is it out of the question"
WHAT DO YOU MEAN "WHAT ABOUT SEX??" WE AREN'T TOGETHER OBVIOUSLY WE AREN'T HAVING SEX
"you don't need to be together to have sex"
WHY DO YOU WANT TO HAVE SEX WITH ME IF WE ARE NOT TOGETHER??
"I am not saying that I do".
But yes he fucking is, he's so full of shit. And all this time he pretended he was against non monogamous hookup culture but in reality men aren't actually against that in any meaningful way it all just stems from a place of possessiveness, but once he sees he can not possess me he asks for the next best thing.
I fucking hate men, this was so weird and genuinly shocked me, it was so out of character. I am going to choose to believe its because he misses me so much he will take anything but in reality I know filthy scrotes only want one thing and I am just a hole. Holy shit, I can say unironically for the first time in my shitposting career "pinkpilled again".
After so many times of being treated like an object I am just gonna turn into a butch lesbian dom. Because of internalized misogyny I can't take assertive women seriously so being a bottom or pillow princess like is my natural default with men is out of the question, I have to be the dom.
Or maybe I will always be straight and I am following incel logic of becoming the opposite sex in order to satisfy my desires for the opposite sex. Like the incel to tranny pipeline taking dicks in the ass.
I dont want a penis though ew lmao can you imagine

Anyway I talked to the kid last night and this morning. Both times he has approached me and I feel guilty but he is always with his friends and walking up to a group of strangers to talk to one individual person is more than I can handle. Thats the major reason I didn't approach him at first in my free period, because I am not gonna walk up to a table of people I don't even know and go "hello" then sit like a tard with nothing to say because my retard brain can't handle large social interactions while the other kid feels guilty because he feels obligated to talk to me but also has his friends.
Recipe for disaster!
I need to find ways to approach him alone.
Anyways we traded books. Yesterday I talked about the Grapes of Wrath bc I love it so much and thought he would like it because he likes history, and he gave me a book of short stories about the Vietnam war called The Things They Carried. I read the first paragraph and its this filthy fucking moid pondering if some girl he knows who isn't even his gf is a virgin, licking the part on the letter envelope where she licked like a deranged perv? I bet he would drop her the moment he found out she wasn't a virgin, bc all men care about are holes. WHY DOES HER VIRGINITY MATTER?? pinkpilled yet AGAIN.
Anyways he thought we were supposed to have an assembly today so he asked to sit with me because the seniors are doing something different. I said yes but idek if we are having one I have no clue. We shall see. My 1st period teacher was supposed to read us an email but she didn't because she is a lazy whore.
Anyways thats all!

it never ends
i am just a hole
i am just a hole
i am just a hole
i am just a hole
i am just a hole
i am just a hole
i am just a hole
i am just a hole
men will never value for anything but sex

P44448
Correct, you dumb hole

it never ends
i am just a flower
i am just a flower
i am just a flower
i am just a flower
i am just a flower
i am just a flower
i am just a flower
i am just a flower
bees will never value for anything except nectar

P44451
Correct, you dumb flower

P44451
This comparison fucking sucks
yes maybe it is a critique on how I am silly for expecting anything more, just like it was silly for a flower to expect anything more from a bee, because flowers pose no other benefit to bees
Sure flowers are beautiful but bees are too low IQ to realise it
Just like men are too low IQ to realise women have more to offer than sex
But the bees that go out and pollinate are all female bees, the male bees just stay home and get fat and bang the queen.

This makes me feel better now ngl
Just like its not the flower's fault that bees are incapable of recognizing het qualities beyond nectar, its not my fault that men cannot recognize my good qualities beyond being a hole
It doesn't mean i don't gave good qualities it just means that men are fundementally flawed and slaves to their biological impulses, much like bees so they can not recognize my good qualities beyond my hole
Bees and men are both too flawed to see the good in flowers and women, and thats not our fault. Thats because something is wrong with the bees.

P44454
You're used goods

>women have more to offer than sex
List three things.

This thought has been rattling around my head since the band and chorus had a joint concert 2 days ago.
Generally everyone thinks band kids are the worst because they are all weird or some shit, and yeah they kinda are.
But at least band members kind of have to have a high IQ to play their instrument, playing instruments takes a bit of brain power.
Well chorus kids are basically band kids except worse because chorus kids are too low IQ to play instruments which is why they sing.
Seriously, singing is the most simple bullshit in the world its just talking but at different pitches and inflections and shit. Chorus kids literally just listen to a song and copy what they do because they are too dumb to learn a real instrument.
So they are just as weird as band kids but insanely low IQ, they are like band lite.
I came to this realization after seeing the chorus: have of them showed to the concert in tshirts and jeans, they were all chubby androgynous gremlin thembies, and most of the kids I knew in middle school who were borderline retarded in sped classes were there. Chorus just attracts all kind og autists but not the supergenius kind the insanely low IQ retarded kind, bc singing is probably the easiest class out there.
And they still take weeks to learn one stupid song.

P44457
It wouldn't matter if I listed 100 because you are completely incapable of understanding, just like its not worthwhile to explain that flowers are good because they smell nice and are pretty and provide other creatures joy. Bees won't understand bc they are retarded.

P44455
>Thats because something is wrong with the bees.
There's nothing wrong with the bees.
There's nothing wrong with the flowers, either.
There are occasional misunderstandings between them and love must win despite this.

P44440
>He made me feel better almost instantly.
the power of love
or maybe you were panicking bc you had no idea wtf to expect and when by the time you got in the car you realized it was all gonna be just fine
i remember one time i was going on a date with a girl i was actually feeling extremely anxious and i literally never ever get anxious and i was like 'damn, if a minor crush makes this to me, being in love must be literal hell, i do not have the heart for this sort of thing'
then when i realized she stood me up i calmed down instantly and fell back onto a cold contemptuous mood
but that was a while ago
i recently did a major fuck up in my life that will have long-term consequences, yet i feel nothing about it
and i felt nothing when i realized what i had done too, not even that sudden sinking feeling in the heart when you get a scare
just nothing
like im already dead
honestly, just die already, its the ultimate solution to the Life Question
if you cant kys, just die inside like i did
its p comfy, i promise
all the bad a bad feefees are replaced by a general cloak of bleakness over your brain
and once you get used to it, you dont even realize its there anymore
>Sure I am slightly chubby but I have giant boobies so its ok
literal fat tits due to fat dont count
and no amount of boobs can redeem you if you have an ugly ass
for your own good, i hope you dont
i have a scientific thesis that proves that assi > booba, but i forgot where i put it
so just take my word for it
but the gist is that it takes the premises that 'big ass + flat tits is still sexy, while flat ass + big tits are ugly as hell' and then conducts some mathematical analysis to prove that ass has more value than tits
>Yea tbh but its ok bc men don't care about personality anyways
its true
thats why women never bother to develop one
>I listen in on their conversations
what do they talk about?
>We have been broken up for 3 days, I think thats the longest
lmfao yea proof all your breakups are fake and gay
>you are only good for paying for my pedicures and expensive jewelry
only after i get my dick wet by virgin poon
bc if im getting 2nd hand pussy, shes getting 2nd hand jewelry too
quid pro quo
used goods for used goods
and no complaining, fair's fair
P44446
>he's so full of shit. And all this time he pretended he was against non monogamous hookup culture
wasnt he a massive manslut before being with you?
>I know filthy scrotes only want one thing and I am just a hole.
idk wtf made you assume otherwise beforehand
>Holy shit, I can say unironically for the first time in my shitposting career "pinkpilled again".
welcome to the club
once you realize all relationships are purely transactional, its fucking over
you will never get over this fact and it will poison your mind for the rest of your life
enjoy enlightenment (:
>After so many times of being treated like an object I am just gonna turn into a butch lesbian dom.
you fucking wont, you bitch
you cant even talk to women
and good luck even finding a dyke in the first place
bc seducing straight girls aint gonna work when you have the character depth of a sidewalk rainpuddle and the social skills of a snail
>Because of internalized misogyny I can't take assertive women seriously
based
same
and i have a femdom kink
but even i cant take 3dpd seriously when they try to act tough and assertive
its just too ridiculous lmfao like go make me a sandwich bitch
>Or maybe I will always be straight and I am following incel logic of becoming the opposite sex in order to satisfy my desires for the opposite sex. Like the incel to tranny pipeline taking dicks in the ass.
i wonder if there is such a thing as a used-loose-hole-to-transboy pipeline
i wouldnt be surprised if there is
>I dont want a penis though ew lmao can you imagine
wtf yes i can
and why dont you?
having penis is comfier than having vagina
it wont bleed for 1/4th of the time like vaginas do (in fact, if you take good care of it, it never bleeds at all)
and you can pee while standing up
all pros and no cons
just take the tranny pill
stitch your stinky hole shut and start wearing a strapon everywhere
>I read the first paragraph and its this filthy fucking moid pondering if some girl he knows who isn't even his gf is a virgin, licking the part on the letter envelope where she licked like a deranged perv
sounds based
might read
>I bet he would drop her the moment he found out she wasn't a virgin
Yes.
no hymen, no deal
>bc all men care about are holes
can you blame them?
thats the only thing women have to offer
>WHY DOES HER VIRGINITY MATTER??
why wouldnt it?
ok ok, thing of it like this
you know that 2nd hand objects are worth less than new ones, right?
a phone that already had an owner is cheaper than a store-new one (assuming same model etc etc)
so a girl who already had a bf is bad enough
but now imagine if the previous owner of the phone has busted several fat loads all over the phone screen
would you want that phone?
no, thats fucking disgusting
you are literally playing with some dude's cum every time you use it
the phone would need to be dirt cheap and youd need to be very desperate for a phone if you were to even consider getting one
so the jizzed phone is p much worthless and only a desperate customer would want it, and even then still wouldnt wanna pay much for it
so yea, it over for you
you had your ticket for a decent husband and you blew it with an internet punk
you are the harbinger of your own doom

P44448
at least you have a hole, dipshit
you should be extremely thankful you were blessed with at least one thing of worth to your name
bc if you were a man, given your sorry state, you would have nothing
nothing at all
no fake internet relationship
no ppl at school wanting to talk to you bc 'you look interesting'
no army of simps offering to be your slaves online
youd be all alone to wallow in your own bitterness all the fucking time
and be turbo horny on top of it all
so. be. fucking. grateful. you. stupid. cunt-haver.

P44451
based reply
i like the simplicity of your genius
i try to convey the same thing, but im too fucking verbose
sorry, i cant help myself

P44454
>Sure flowers are beautiful but bees are too low IQ to realise it
idf if IQ (a matter of intelligence) has anything to do with beauty (a matter of taste)
but whatever helps you cope
>women have more to offer than sex
literally deadass and unironically tell me ANYTHING, ANYTHING AT ALL non-sexual that w*men can offer that men cannot offer 10x better and more reliably
tell me
just fucking tell me
im dying to know
and considering that you have no female friends, and are always complaining that your mother and teachers are huge fucking worthless whores, i sincerely have no idea where the fuck you even got this retarded braindead idea from
>But the bees that go out and pollinate are all female bees
technically no
they are basically asexual
they are 'female' only in the chromosomes they carry
but they are actually sexually undifferentiated
only the queen is a true female
and the males really are males
>the male bees just stay home and get fat and bang the queen
btw the queen also just stays home and gets fat and gets banged by the males
but anyway, back to the bee-flower analogy
ahem
you fucking ungrateful flower
the worker bee does all the work for you
you just sit there and do fucking nothing
the bee flies to you
the bee wiggles on you while covered in pollen to help you reproduce
hell, not even help, the bee literally does all the work in getting you to fulfil your damn singular existential purpose which is making more copies of yourself
and yet you DARE to talk shit about the bee because in exchange it wants some of your petty nectar?
what, you expected it to do all that work for free? just because you are such a pretty flower?
you are a fucking PLANT
you cant do shit
you dont even have means of locomotion
without the bees, you are literally fully dependent on the wind to maybe have a shot at life
you are worthless dead weight
and you STILL expect the fucking overworked bee to give a fucking damn about anything other than your fucking nectar? it has a fucking colony to run, you know? it doesnt enjoy a life of leisurely basking in the sun like you, stupid fucking vegetable
i pity you, i really do
it must be very painful to live with all this unmet entitlement
im sorry that you had to be subjected to all that propaganda that made you turn out like this

P44455
>het qualities beyond nectar
lol like what? sitting there and looking pretty and not much else?
the beauty of flowers is a matter of taste anyway (ie entirely subjective, so basically non-existent in actual reality)
>my good qualities beyond being a hole
like what? playing with the hearts of men until they go absolutely insane?

sorry linny, ig im piling up on you during a vulnerable moment
but incels like me live for moments like this where a femoid's retardation brings her own downfall
i try to act aloof to it, but i really fucking hate women
you know, ive heard that envy is the worst cardinal sin of all bc it only hurts you
while the other sins are inherently pleasurable
but whoever thinks this is a fool
envy has 2 stages
only the 1st stage is painful, and sadly sometimes it never evolves into the 2nd stage
this, THIS is the 2nd stage
watching you suffer
there is a huge sadistic pleasure and watching the ruin of the subject of envy
and i mean HUGE [spoiler: just like mah cock, ay!]
especially when i get to kick while its down
so yea im literally hurting you for my own sick pleasure
you suffering pleases me
so be a good girl and suffer for me, wont you?
rejoice on the fact that your misery isnt entirely meaningless, which is more than most ppl can say
it serves the purpose of making me happy
oh god, im basically a rapist lol raping my own friend
thats the kinda person i am
idk if this is coming as a shock to anyone, i hope not, otherwise it means yallre retarded
hikari always makes a huge deal of moments like this, but like lmfao its not like i even try to hide it
also idk why ppl gaslight themselves into thinking im not made of pure evil and have liquid wickedness running through my veins
bc i most definitely am and most definitely have
even after i tell and show them multiple times that this is indeed the case they still refuse to accept the truth
ig its just that nobody is used to witnessing such ruthless brutal absolute sincerity from anyone
ppl normally will self-censor and pay lip service, all in order to keep up appearances and maintain relationships
meanwhile im literally too dead to care, so i have nothing holding me back from speaking my mind
which is why i adopted this stream of consciousness writing style
these are my pure unadulterated thoughts
it doesnt get more honest than this
yet somehow ppl feel the need to cope
>h-he isnt so bad...
yes i am
in fact, im worse
way worse
im just barely capable of expressing the hailstorm of spite that rages inside me at every fucking moment of my existence
you have no idea how much i hate everything and everyone
oh wow ok this is starting to get angsty and moody and edgy lmfao im gonna stop now
im listen to taisei's music rn btw
i dont usually listen to music at all, but it has been stuck in my head
the bgm is an absolute banger
the rumous around 2hu's music are true, the music is epic
dooooooo dooo doo doooooooo... doooo piii pii tum tummmmmm
dooooooo dooo doo doooooooo... doooodooodooo dooodooodoo doodoodoodoo pewpewpew-doodoodoo
yea its p good
anyway bye ill ttyl
...OH SHIDD I FORGOT THIS THIS ISNT MY BLOG LMFAO SAKFHSAKLFHKSALJH

>imagine lying ever
imagine not lying lol
lying is based
not is it funny, but it also makes dumb fuck do what you want

P44462
bees dont appreciate flowers beauty
flowers dont appreciate bees hard work
they werent made to understand each other
they were made to transact
simple as
>love must win despite this
cringe
this desire to attribute deeper meaning to the most bland mundane shit is the root of all suffering
raw reality is cold and uncaring
the clash between the two is known as the absurd
and the absurd causes extreme discomfort in humans, hence this thread
its best to just accept reality bc it is what it is
trying to cope out of it will just get yourself killed eventually, by necktie or something similar

P44476
I would rape a boy who looks this way
Ngl he looks kinda like the kid I am friends with now
P44467
>sips on incel tears
>cracks knuckles
Alright what do we have here

>or maybe you were panicking bc you had no idea wtf to expect and when by the time you got in the car you realized it was all gonna be just fine
No I was panicking because I was sneaking out and didn't want to get caught. The threat of being caught didnt go away when I left it only increased, his presence calmed me.
>minor crush
Minors crushes aren't the same as love. You wouldn't feel more intense in love you would feel the opposite.
The more you love and know someone the more comfortable you become around them.
Yeah the rush and excitement of something new is exciting, more exciting than love. But the deep bond of love is also wonderful too. In the end it comes down to uncertainty and thrills vs stability and peacefulness.
>i recently did a major fuck up in my life that will have long-term consequences, yet i feel nothing about it
Do tell
>honestly, just die already, its the ultimate solution to the Life Question
I cant my biological predisposition is to want to live no matter how irrational and even when I want to die my survival monkey brain makes lame excuses not to.
>die inside
wtf I just made a friend, how can I die inside and throw away my progress
>literal fat tits due to fat dont count
You are retarded the vast majority of the breast is fat only a small amount are actually milk ducts
But yes I know what you mean by fat tits, when obese girls have swinging udders probably due to abrupt weight can they are saggy and stretched and the ligements stretched so they cant hold themselves.
My boobes are only slightly sag and still large for my frame, they have been for years you bitch
So shut the fuck up you nigger, all of my boyfriends have loved my tiddies, they are literally awesome lol
Infact my ex bf said before he met me he liked asses to boobies, but then after meeting me he said he now likes boobies better because my boobies are that awesome
Yes I used to dislike my boobies but after all my bfs being obsessed with them and worshipping my boobies I know now my boobs are awesome
>and no amount of boobs can redeem you if you have an ugly ass
Yes they can and did
Liking ass is degenerate and makes you a closet gay
Boobs give milk, they give the sweet nectar of life
Ass produces waste, disgusting smelly lumps of shit with evil bacteria
Why do you like the place where POOP comes from???
>what do they talk about?
i remember when I gave him my reply note they were joking about Walt Disneys head being frozen lol
Mustve been quite a scene me following around people I don't know while bumping into things and discussing that
>bc if im getting 2nd hand pussy, shes getting 2nd hand jewelry too
2nd hand = vintage
vintage is nice, i fucking LOVE overrated old shit
so thanks lol
Dont even pretend like im below you you stupid bitch you are so affection starved if i ever offered you a CRUMB of my attention irl youd be eating out of the palm of my hand
incels talk tough shit online but irl are big hypocritical softies.
>wasnt he a massive manslut before being with you?
His body count is 4
2 abusive gfs and 1 drunk hookup, and me :)
Also one time some Latina whore from a bar almost gave him a handjob, but she stole his glasses and wallet lmao
the worst is the women he talked to online, one was a famous lolcow with a meme made of her
he was in her beta orbiters discord
>its just too ridiculous lmfao like go make me a sandwich bitch
I would be a gentle dom, I would be kind to her and treat her like a princess not a subordinate.
Id tower over her while shes a against a wall and put my hand above her in that intimidating what and id stroke her cheek and grab her chin and id gently push her on the bed and grab her pussy then take off her belt and give her the best pussy licking she ever got and push my sausage fingers in her and and and
>having penis is comfier than having vagina
A dangling extremity that when you sit wrong or get kicked sends you rolling over in pain? Public boners? Testicular cancer? Prostate cancer? SMEGMA?? Testicular torsions? Phimosis? No thanks.
>and you STILL expect the fucking overworked bee to give a fucking damn about anything other than your fucking nectar?
Imagine the perspective of the lonely flower, all these bees coming in and using her making her feel worthless, she is all alone and just wants someone to- actually I don't give a fuck about this gay ass metaphor LMAO men suck women rule suck my girldick misogynist

btw dont put too much effort in your next textwall bc I won't put even half as much effort in my reply as I did just now lol

P44461
>It wouldn't matter if I listed 100
>Bees won't understand bc they are retarded.
and that puts the grand total of worthwhile non-sexual female qualities at... zero
very nice nona, feminism won again

P44490
>I would rape a boy who looks this way
same
>You wouldn't feel more intense in love you would feel the opposite.
>The more you love and know someone the more comfortable you become around them.
oh yea that makes sense
fear and anxiety are emotions mainly felt when facing uncertainty
one thing in horror media thats super scary is not knowing whether something is a threat or not
bc if you know the intentions of something, you can plan and act accordingly, even if its evil
but you aint got the first clue of wtf its up to, you are at a complete loss and thats feels much more unsettling
>wtf I just made a friend, how can I die inside and throw away my progress
yea ik how it is
but just wait until he inevitably pinkpills you
youll wish you had given up much earlier
>My boobes are only slightly sag and still large for my frame
ugh cow tits ew
>all of my boyfriends have loved my tiddies
yea dumbass, throw a starving man a piece of moldy bread and see if he wont eat it
doesnt mean moldy bread is awesome
>after meeting me he said he now likes boobies better
sounds like you got a shitty ass and he had to cope
>my boobs are awesome
pics or im calling bullshit

>Liking ass is degenerate and makes you a closet gay
>Boobs give milk, they give the sweet nectar of life
no you fucking retard, you got it backwards
tits are for babies, literally
only menchildren like tits
the ass is the true frame of the female's rump
ass is so perfectly attractive that women literally had to develop an extra pair of ass on their chest
and thats a fact
thats the reason humans are the only mammals where the female grows breasts without ever needing to have children
monkeys walk on all fours; ass to the face
humans evolve to walk upstraight; also have to develop surrogate ass for the face
and ass is where you fuck pussy from, so its literally made for grown men, not babies
>Ass produces waste, disgusting smelly lumps of shit with evil bacteria
idk why youd instantly assume i was referring to the shitpipe when i was comparing ass to tits
obviously i meant that the cheeks and much sexier than tits
>Why do you like the place where POOP comes from???
because its hot???
bc youre not supposed to stick it into the stinkbox, but it fits a cock so snugly so like imagine be fucking a girl from the back and you see her cute little balloon knot winking at you and you go like 'damn, i wanna stick it in there' and shes like 'nooo dont stick it in there, thats where i poop from!' and you say 'shut up, bitch!' and she says 'o-okay daddy' and then you destroy her poopchute and leave her walking funny for like a whole week and everywhere she goes she looks like she really needs to poop and so then like she has to go to the grocery store and ppl let her cut in line bc they think 'wow this poor girl must REALLY need to poop' so then she gets home earlier for another buttblasting sesh and rince and repeat
so yea its p hot
stop acting like it isnt bc it objectively is
>2nd hand = vintage
>vintage is nice, i fucking LOVE overrated old shit
youre mistaking your autistic self for a hot old cougar
now thats where overused pussy isnt cucked
bc theyre experienced and can teach all manner of secret sexual technique from ancient times like the great depression or world war or some crazy shit like that
wtf do your used goods bring to the table?
i bet you have sex like a starfish
>Dont even pretend like im below you
yes you are
only pretty girls can melt my prefrontal cortex and you just aint got it going on
>if i ever offered you a CRUMB of my attention irl youd be eating out of the palm of my hand
stfu skank youre the one with no friends irl who need to resort to your simps to pretend that someone loves you
plus you have missed my girl crazy phase for like 6 months, so even if you were pretty, this ship has already sailed
if anything, youd be the one begging for my attention to help you make real friends like youre doing with that kid rn
>incels talk tough shit online but irl are big hypocritical softies
extremely rich coming from (You) of all ppl

>2 abusive gfs and 1 drunk hookup, and me :)
and thats how it is
if i were to even bother with cunts again, all id be getting is from that level to worse
abusive foid, drunken whore, or fake internet gf thats more volatile than liquid nitrogen and as faithful as a redditor
its so fucking over its not even funny anymore
>she stole his glasses and wallet
i can understand the wallet
but how the FUCK do you let someone steal your glasses
just fucking how
and wtf do you even do with stolen glasses
its not like you can just pawn them off to anyone, right?
>one was a famous lolcow with a meme made of her
sauce?
>I would be a gentle dom, I would be kind to her and treat her like a princess not a subordinate.
h-hawt!
>A dangling extremity
ok tit haver
why dont you get top surgery so you stop reeling in pain whenever you get punched in the chest (easiest area to hit) and having to wear bras to hide your salami nipples when they get hard from the cold
and dont forget the breast cancer and tit sweat (ew)
>when you sit wrong
wtf kinda saggy ballsack do you need to have for that to happen lmfao

>all these bees coming in and using her making her feel worthless
and why would that make her feel worthless?
all these bees come to her bc she has something worth their time
is the flower retarded?
ig so, plants arent known for possessing a nervous system
>she is all alone and just wants someone to-
to what?
pick her up?
gawk at her?
give her an uncomfortably long sniff?
hows is that any better than what the bees do?
>men suck women rule
>t. gender that never made any real contribution to humanity and only ever leeched off the efforts of the other gender while he built the entire civilization

P44491
yea as usual femoids are incapable of appreciating and repaying the hard work of men
but it is what it is
my sigma grindset dictates that textwalls arent written for the sake of others
bc theres no guarantee they will reply
i textwall for its own sake
texts for the text throne
rambles for the ramble god

Posting before bed
So it turns out the thing with the schedule was we had free period at the end of the day so some losers can go play football for 35 mins or some retarded shit? Not even shortened classes.
So we went to the library, I opened up lambda to read more hate posts but didn't even get a sentence in before he showed up. Says he likes the Grapes of Wrath so far but isn't a fan of the dialogue.
I swear he is the nicest kid ever, I almost feel bad because I am not a nice person.
All in all it went well, there were a handful of kids in the library and we were literally the only ones talking which felt weird like everyone was eavesdropping on our kinda awkward conversations.
I learned he wants to be a fireman, I learned he got bullied at his old school and when he was presenting in front of class hed stumble over his words and peopoe would throw things at him. He showed me more of his coin collection too and just random things.
He wears this jacket everyday which I always thought looked cool it has fireman patches on it and apparently I am the only person who ever complimented him on it. He says people say his style is boring but honestly its better than the wigger styles everywhere, and he doesnt wear sweatpants. I was suprised.
But then I start panicking bc what if I am being fake? I know my thoughts are my thoughts but then I started panicking because I read something about people who mirror your personality unintentionally because they don't have a sense of identity and now I think wtf wtf what if thats me my sense of identity is very poor, but thats crazy because even before i knew him I noticed that jacket and liked it.
And I try to connect with his interests like coins because I actually did have interesting coins but then I think wrf what if I am being fake and subconsciously just adopting his identity because I have no sense of self?
>inb4 "holes don't have personalities"
Hes great though I am glad I decided to be his friend. I think I did well talking except the times when I started laughing like a maniac while trying to tell multiple stories about kids pooping in urinals...
And yes I do think we are just friends because he mentioned going to prom, I assume with a date but maybe just with his friends? Idk he had a pic of some car and it was his grandpas and he mentioned taking it to prom. Fancy car for fancy date? Idk. Idk when prom is.
But my new friendship is the perfect way to distract from the termination of my almost 2 year relationship, I have been so bubbly about this for the past few hours I only get sad when I stop to think about it. And my ex bf is still my friend because we are both too pathetic to let go. Hes going out with his friends tonight too.
LOL I don't think I have ever actually got over a man on my own, another man would just take his place and then months later I would process the relationship and melt down.
Like my recent ex bf came to replace my psycho ex bf who would jerk to pics of me with sliced legs.
And before that i had a crush on a quapa who i sent jokingly lewd vocaroos, but the joke was on me because he was an unironic perv
and before that my ultimate ex bf who tried to groom me to be his tradwife and kater called me used goods who i melted down at over a year ago when we last spoke and i realised how shitty he was.
Dont be an egirl.
Rn he was giving me advice on cleaning my room and even offered to come over and help
Is this relationship moving too fast or is it me? idc hes literally so nice lol
I wrote more gushing but accidently lost it and cba to rewrite it. Repetative anyway. Gnight

>But then I start panicking bc what if I am being fake? I know my thoughts are my thoughts but then I started panicking because I read something about people who mirror your personality unintentionally because they don't have a sense of identity and now I think wtf wtf what if thats me my sense of identity is very poor, but thats crazy because even before i knew him I noticed that jacket and liked it.
holy shit do ppl unironically struggle with this retarded conundrum
i never even understood why having an 'identity' is an important personal issue
sounds like the most braindead made up problem by teenagers with nothing better to think about
i mean, does being a fake ass hoe not count as a personality?
who made these retarded rules? and why are you obeying?
>LOL I don't think I have ever actually got over a man on my own, another man would just take his place and then months later I would process the relationship and melt down.
at least you completed the first step that is recognizing the pattern
vid related
>Rn he was giving me advice on cleaning my room and even offered to come over and help
hell defly try to rape you when he gets there
>Is this relationship moving too fast or is it me? idc hes literally so nice lol
i bet denpa will have a thing or two to say about how this is literally bpd
intense relationship that moves fast
idealizing someone, and falling in love with that idea, not even the person itself
yup, sounds like its already over for you
it only gets worse as you age
but anyway, you should enjoy your first irl crush while you can ig
you know, before everything inevitably goes to shit since you no longer have distance to help mitigate your craziness

>fear and anxiety are emotions mainly felt when facing uncertainty
Also just the excitement of something new, not necessarily anxiety driven. When something new and good comes along you will be excited but eventually bore because that good thing becomes routine. You adapt to the stimulus, its called hedonic treadmill.
>but just wait until he inevitably pinkpills you
He seems like a good person, he would never all men are bad except for him hes nice lol. He would never pinkpill me
Yesterday I slept with the coin he gave me under my pillow.
>yea dumbass, throw a starving man a piece of moldy bread and see if he wont eat it
My bf was a manslut, he was not starved he was well fed.
>pics or im calling bullshit
stop trying to take advantage of me while I am vulnerable
I took a pic almost posted but then I remember detractors will detract even if you are a supermodel, first rule of trolling anorexia discord
even 12 bmi girls will get called fat
bc detractors just like to detract, and you can only make it worse giving them what they want
So instead its best to make them seethe bc they will never get what they want
>gay coping
dont care not replying
just admit youre a fag already
>youre mistaking your autistic self for a hot old cougar
No I was talking about 2nd hand jewlry
But your phone analogy doesn't apply that much because your skin cells replace themselves at rapid rates so the cells that were actually came on will probably have been replaced by then
Even then its mostly a psychological fear. Having a phone that was jizzed on in the past isn't really bad as long as its been cleaned and there were no stds
its purely psychological fear and comes from puritan braindamage that says semen is gross and unclean
>fake internet gf thats more volatile than liquid nitrogen and as faithful as a redditor
LMAO I love this description of me
Thx its pretty accurate
>sauce?
You dun goofed.
>you stop reeling in pain whenever you get punched in the chest
I am assuming its nowhere near ball pain and they only hurt when PMS or developing. Running sucks though ngl
>hide your salami nipples when they get hard from the cold
hard nips are cuter than soft nips, they get tight and are the opposite of salami. Wearing wet tshirts with no bra and tight hard nips is hot
>holy shit do ppl unironically struggle with this retarded conundrum
Its a female thing bc females actually care about honesty and integrity males do whatever they can to get what they want and have no thoughts on being fake (to your own admission)
>vid related
Not watchin
>hell defly try to rape you when he gets there
I told him he coudlnt come over wtf
no im not gonna have a literal stranger clean my room and see dirry tampons and piss jars and realize something is very wrong with me
Also my whole house is dirty and my mom has a panic attack whenever someone shows up and refuses to let them inside
>first irl crush while you can ig
Hes not my crush yet uwu
Also not my first irl crush just my first since middle school
Also not the first to like me irl there were 2 other boys in middle school but I bullied them until they stopped liking me
Both turned gay :)

Also idk if he is interested. He mentioned goin to prom so i assumed he had a date, however my ex said men go alone all the time to ask girls out at prom
and if he finds someone else i will be sad so i am not gonna like him until i know he likes me at least, possibly never bc i still love my ex snd should probably stop the toxic bf pattern
omg omg what if he asked me to the prom?? a few weeks ago my cousin who is my age went to the prom and she literally said "lynn is never gonna do this so I have to enjoy this now" treating some random whore like her surrogate daughter
shed be so impressed lol
anyways i learned my lesson from my last relationship and I know how to act now, wont fuck the next up

I am so tired of my mom crying. I used to feel bad but now I just roll my eyes at her. Conveniently crying the moment I get home from school, while washing dishes, over random crap. Shes as exhausting as my ex.
Didn't get out of bed until 1 or something and then i had to go to a stupid baby shower with people I dont fucking know because my mom was melting down about having to go to the shower alone or some stupid bullshit. I AM SO SICK OF PEOPLE MELTING DOWN AT ME, I CANT FIX YOUR EMOTIONS SO GO CRY IN PRIVATE LIKE THE REST OF US OR GET EMOTIONAL TAMPON EFRIENDS
I saw some negress I go to school with there, oddly enough. Idk how I am even related to this bitch, looked like she was with an older sister friends with the expectant mom? Yuck. It was very white trash, fat bitches with no bras on in crop tops, even the mom and you could tell her boobs were the swollen expectant pregnant lady kind, she looked like an ancient fertility statue.
Lots of racemixing. White trash white girls with nigger boyfriends and niglet babies vaping wearing trashy clothes and having tattoos and piercings.
There was also some weird asian guy, he walked over to me, my mom, and my grandma and introduces himself, clearly fucking wasted. His breath which smelled terrible like shit and alcohol just wafts over. I dont think of myself as unironically racist but after smelling his breath and looking at his dilated pores I just thought "get the fuck away from me you disgusting gook". I shook his hand. Ew. He mistook me for 21 and offered me hard ice tea.
Later he is talking to some fat white bitch "jokingly" chastising her for not having kids and calling her selfish while laughing obnoxiously loud.
Ugh. the moment we pulled up I just wanted to fucking go home.
Then the rest of rhe day was empty. I felt bad about my ex but not much. I remember my boyfriend said something about me looking for his replacement and I denied it, and maybe I am not consciously doing it but I am, with this kid. Because ik if I didnt have this kid around I would be melting down but he distracts me.
I don't wanna feel the pain of a breakup again. I remember when I broke up with my 2nd bf during my first nanoshit diaries it destroyed me and I just can't do it again, it was months of pining and feeling like shit.
I was looking through coins trying to find something cool for that kid, because I wanna repay him for the coin he gave me. I did find a nickel from 1942 with a defect and 35% silver, he has a couple and I offered it to him and he said he wanted it.
"why were you looking through coins? bored?"
"yeah basicslly"
Lol. Am I weird for doing this? Probably.
He wanted to call, I couldn't because I worry about being eavesdropped on, and then I felt bad because its gonna be hard for me to have a normal friendship, but overall ok now.
I think thats it.

Last night me and my ex bf talked a lot about our relationship I guess, it was kinda sad because its clear he kinda gave up too. He still wants to be together but he's tired of my bullshit I think and doesn't have the energy to fight for it anymore. I dont blame him and I don't expect him to, its just sad seeing how I beat the hope out of him I guess.
His mom said every marriage/relationship has a similar issue and those who make it through are just resilient. I don't think she knows how badly I treat him though. My final choice was that we need to spend the summer apart at least, at least until school starts again or my birthday. At least until then. Maybe we can both get better instead of dragging eachother down and if we still love eachother then maybe we really are resiliant, or "trauma bound".
I wanna be with him, I think about hugging him and kissing him when we visit in a a couple weeks but I know they are just thoughts and crawling back doesn't seem like an option anymore, for 7 of the 18 months we have been together we have been progressively becoming more unhappy, especially after his sister died. I don't want half of our relationship to become miserable, so maybe its good to end it now. He warned me when his sister died that he might change and things could get bad.
He said other sweet things like how he liked giving me a lot of "firsts" in a way that was totally safe, he said I was his "superior intellectually" but he was more experienced and he wished I was older so I could be more mature (lol) and not act like I do. Before he always lied and said it didn't bother him.
We are still talking, we are still friends, and maybe it doesn't feel real because as long as we talk I still get to enjoy his presence, maybe the transition is easier but I still feel obligated to him.
He is still my best friend I guess, after all the time we spent together we know eachother very well and can talk about practically anything and I don't feel ashamed of myself with him. I have a sweater I was knitting for him and never finished but still plan on doing.

Today I had a picnic at my grandmas because of memorial day even though thats not until tomorrow. My mom had an absolute meltdown and went into a crying fit and couldn't go outside with everyone else. Everytime someone said anything to her shed start crying, my grandma said she had to come over tomorrow and they were going to apply for a medical marijuana card for her, my grandma is renewing hers.
My cousin brought his girlfriend, she was making me irritated and uncomfortable by simply existing and representing everything I am not, being a normal human beingz socializing competantly, looking pretty and acting adult, so I stormed off to the porch like a bitter incel and read some of the book that kid gave me. One of the stories was about the little good things of the war and how they all grew accustomed to the lifestyle and there was one anecdote about a guy who came back because "the peace was so good it hurt". Ouch, sounds kinda like trauma bonding I guess, idk a better way to describe it. But getting so accustomed to chaos and misery you aren't used to things feeling ok and you feel wrong when they are. Not even exclusive to war, it feels like how being miserable most of my formative years fucked me over because now when things feel ok they don't feel normal and they feel uncomfortable. Being normal is abnormal and completely outside of what you grew accustomed to. People recreate trauma from their formative years, thats why the abused become the abusers. Maybe I am reading it wrong but that kinda stuck with me.
Well thats all. For now.

tfw horny but no bf to give me bwc
wtf wtf i didn't think id miss this part of having a bf i always dealt before
holy shit is this what being male is like?? horny with no options??? Now ik why incels are so mad LMAO.
i wanna crochet and i have a baby blanket to finish but its too damn hot
Ugh
i drank like 3 sodas earlier and feel gross too, I guess I can read more
aggghhh

P44864
>horny with no options
you absolutely can shag your ex, that's just an option you don't like

P44865
Youre right actually lol
Not only my ex but other men ik (not that im very attracted to them)
even if i knew no valid males i could go on /soc/ and easily find some
but females have morals, which is a prison, males cant relate

>females have morals
lol

Why don't you start by cleaning your room? You think you are an horrible person and tiding up your personal space will help you feel better. It doesn't matter if it takes you 2 months, I think it's going to help. Don't allow your new irl crush to go to your house yet, your mother will freakout.
After your room, do whatever is next to it. If your mother says something or if she tries to stop you because she's going to do it eventually, don't listen and keep cleaning as much as you want everyday. At some point, she will help you and felt better herself.

Rn I feel so anxious and idk why, maybe something bad is happening and my 6th sense is warning me
I am not really for any reason its killing me, I feel like I am dying
Last night I tied a noose not because I was particularly suicidal but just because I wanted to feel like I could do it if I wanted, but I knew I wasnt
I was gonna tie it to a hook on my ceiling held in place by a screw and act like I was gonna do it just to see how it feels, but I wouldn't actually try it because that hook is probably not enough to support my weight. I am about 170 pounds anyone wanna chime in on this dilemma?
Anyways I didnt act it out because I heard my mom stirring so i quickly shoved it under my bed but I forgot to move it back to my hiding spot what if she finds it????
I just wanna stop feeling this way. walking helps but I am in class. Luckily that kid I know invited me to join a club for walking yesterday and I said yes. Just walking in circles on the track during my free period on 30 mins.
This morning I avoided him at breakfast because all the sudden I just couldn't deal with people even though I actually wanted to see him and I am excited to later. I went to class early. turns out he didn't show up at breakfast either, because he messaged me saying "sorry i wasn't at breakfast today but I will be tomorrow".
Mine and my bfs situation is ever so complex. Just now in the middle of typing this I told him I was cutting him off again and for a moment my body felt quiet, the anxiety stopped. Its back again but not as bad.
I probably should have updated this situation as it unfolded and I don't feel like detailing it so I will summarize.
22 hours ago we were still broken up. Then I said something which i didn't really mean but became serious where I said I would have sex with him if he stopped bugging me about all the time and energy and money he invested in our relationship, basically prostitution. Anyway it became serious and we agreed to sex when we meet irl in 2 weeks but we also had esex lol. But we were still broken up. Oh how I had fallen from grace.
My sex drive has also been on like 200 for some reason like wtf, and yesterday my energy was so elevated and I felt in bizarrely high spirits, perpetually bored craving stimulation. I accompanied my mom on trips, she gets weed from our grandma to cope with her mental illness now and is applying for a medical cars soon. I practiced doing makeup, even though I hate makeup, because I saw some fat lady countour her face so her double chin went away wtf it was like an optical illusion. I don't have a double chin because I am perfect and sexy but i wanted to try that crazy shit. Too bad I didn't actually have countour stuff so i used eyeshadow and accidently made it so it looked like i had a beard. I went to a local store which sells long skirts I like to wear and bought a couple, as I usually do this time of year.
Skirts are epic btw men are missing out theyre so comfortable.
Anyways then i had a discussion with my bf about our relationship, if we are still gonna have sex and be friends wtf is the difference?
So I proposed scenerios
"what if i started sexxing other men"
"what if i went out with other men"
and he said he would get mad. This wasn't a real proposition i just wanted to see what this was in his mind and obviously it was the same as a relationship because he lost it at the idea and got super pissed wtf wtf male controlling possessiveness?
Anyways I said i wasn't serious and that we are still broken up but we are gonna keep sexxing until we move on/find someone else. He got sad at the prospect, wallowed in sadness and sent me sad songs. He said he basically lived in that mindset the last month or so, sad. I decided to cut him off, then I cried myself to sleep while listening to Space Oddity on repeat. I only slept 3 hours then I woke up and added my bf because I missed him and then we had esex this morning and made up, he accused me of having DPD (lmao??) and I told him that was preposterous. Then I unadded him just now for no reason.
My anxiety is back
My life is a circus

I actually enjoy talking to this kid and I gave him that nickel, he said it was cool because you don't usually find them in change anymore and I was glad to give it to him.
It was pretty good, I felt better while walking. So much better, infinitely better and I managed to have fun despite feeling terrible 2 minutes prior.
He was waiting at me at the doors when I went out to see him. It was good. I feel relaxed for now.
It massively improved my day and we agreed to talk later online while he is at work.
I decided that I will base getting back together with my bf depending on how sad he cam make me when I don't have his presence. it feels abitrary and I get very sad without him but the sadness when i broke up with my 2nd bf was 2 or 3 times as worse, it was chronic and lasted months. Idk if I actually have the capacity to feel that way anymore. Yes its arbitrary but whatever.

>hedonic treadmill
yup
which is why neeting in my room is the optimal life strategy
>Yesterday I slept with the coin he gave me under my pillow.
its over for you, youre already in love but still in denial
>he was not starved he was well fed
a man who fills his belly with maggot-infested rotten meat is not well fed
>stop trying to take advantage of me while I am vulnerable
but who knows if ill ever get another change to get epic tit pics!
my mailbox is for my eyes only, you know...
>I took a pic almost posted but then I remember-
yea remembered that your tits are fat and saggy and the sheer embarrassment made you stop
>first rule of trolling anorexia discord
>even 12 bmi girls will get called fat
dont worry, this time ill say they are awesome even if they are repulsive just to get you posting more
>So instead its best to make them seethe bc they will never get what they want
whatever you say, yucky toots
>just admit youre a fag already
just admit your udders are awful already
>But your phone analogy doesn't apply
it does because microchimerism something something blah blah blah idk i dont really care to spout this particular braindamage rn
>its purely psychological fear and comes from puritan braindamage that says semen is gross and unclean
no youre dumb
all body fluids are potential vectors for disease
plus there a whole metaphysical thing about using something that has been defile, but i dont expect a cum dumpster like you to get it, so i wont even bother
you halfass your replies, i halfass mine
>LMAO I love this description of me
>Thx its pretty accurate
omigosh i know you so well! >w<
thats why youre my 2nd bestie teehee
but honestly at this rate you might fall for 3rd
mahiron is rising p fast and he has the same brand of autism as me, so hell prolly get to 1st in no time
>You dun goofed.
oh THAT whore?
yikes
>I am assuming its nowhere near ball pain
probably
but to compensate, they are way easier to hurt and are hurt by accident way more frequently
>they only hurt when PMS or developing
damn yea that sucks
at least i can say my balls never just start hurting for no reason
another big W for the XY team
>Running sucks though ngl
oh fuck that actually sounds like hell
no wonder women were THE oppressed group throughout all of human history
imagine not being able to just run the fuck away from shit
bc theres a wide variety of problems that can be entirely avoided by just going fast
like niggers for example could just escape from their masters to band together to rebel
but yea that explains why all the holes i have ever met never ever go for a run ever
like, even some guys who dont seem to be in shape and into exercising at all say they sometimes run
ofc they could just be lying so they dont sound like total sedentary mutts
but they could also be telling the truth bc running does feel p good
but ig tithavers cant go for a casual run just for funzies bc their dumb fat bags will bounce and hurt
yikes
speaking of which i havent gone for a run in like a month
damn maybe thats why i have been feeling like shit lately
once you get addicted to it, there are some p nasty withdrawal effects
but rn i feel more like staying inside writing about highly explosive compounds
>Wearing wet tshirts with no bra and tight hard nips is hot
yea that true
just no bra in general is p hot
esp when showing sideboob owo
>females actually care about honesty and integrity
its no fun when the bait is this obvious
>Not watchin
go fuck yourself with a cactus, then
>no im not gonna have a literal stranger clean my room and see dirry tampons and piss jars and realize something is very wrong with me
nah hed just smell the used panties you have lying around instead
>Also my whole house is dirty and my mom has a panic attack whenever someone shows up and refuses to let them inside
kinda crazy to think that someone this dysfunctional is allowed to be a mother
this is why the age of consent should be 35
w*men just shouldnt be allowed to raise children at all
being mentally children themselves and all
you wouldnt trust a 12yo to take care of another 12yo
>Also not the first to like me irl there were 2 other boys in middle school but I bullied them until they stopped liking me
>Both turned gay :)
<me in 5 years
thats the power of the blackpill

>i am not gonna like him until i know he likes me
that means you already like him and are trying to bullshit yourself
he had you in a collar the moment he gave you his coin [spoiler: bc cunts are golddigging whores and will instantly fall in love when given monetary compensation]
>should probably stop the toxic bf pattern
yea you should but you wont
it has been over for you for a long time
and its gonna be even worse irl bc the poor kid wont have the long distance to help soften the stress of your craziness
your bpd ass will take him for a ride and ruin him for life
psycho gf; not even once
>omg omg what if he asked me to the prom??
there is nothing that disgusts me more than a foid's absolute complacency and passivity
actually, scratch that, its not even a misogynistic thing, i just hate complacency in general, which is why i hate the denpa so much
you clearly want to go to the prom with him, but instead of taking the initiative, you expect him to read your mind and know you wanna go with him
you could invite him yourself, but noooooooo the man has to do everything
fe-fucking-moids are so entitled that they bring nothing to the table and still expect the man to do everything
but ofc you wont invite him
you dont have the balls (literally) nor the social skills
you will probably come off as extremely autistic and have him reject you bc he got weirded out by your retarded antisocial ass
so instead you prefer to hope that he comes to you, where you hold all the power
instead of taking a risk for once in your worthless life
dumb cunt
hole
twat
bleeder
meat flaps
just fucking do it already
tell him you wanna go the prom and be inseminated afterwards
or you will miss the one chance to go with someone to the prom and will spend the rest of your life thinking what could have happened if you werent such a stupid cowardly oozing pussy
just be true to your whore self and choke on his cock already
or you will keep disappointing your mother
poor woman tried her best to raise a proper daughter, but all her efforts werent enough
she was a fuck up, and so will you
no redemption for her
she will die full of regrets, one of them is failing as a mother
it was the one chance she had at maybe doing something right in her life, making a version of herself that isnt a failure, but she couldnt do it
she has to be content with your sorry ass instead
yuck
i cannot imagine the daily agony that must be wearing her tired skin every day
crying all the time for no reason bc she just cant take it anymore
and not even her gross goblin of a daughter shows her any compassion
the one person that could maybe relate to her, instead rolls her eyes and walks past
idk how she hasnt killed herself yet, honestly
she really must have the resilience of pure iron
>treating some random whore like her surrogate daughter
good for her she got a daughterfu
we all gotta cope somehow
i mean, imagine having birthed a freakshow
how old is your mom anyway?
still fertile?
should prolly just try again and maybe not fuck it all up so spectacularly this time
honestly, im p sure my dad only didnt try having another me bc my mom was already p old by the time it became clear i was an utter failure
>anyways i learned my lesson from my last relationship and I know how to act now, wont fuck the next up
hilarious how you ignore the vid only to spout the same bullshit it warned against
<"nonononono please. this time! this time it will be different!"
like clockwork
cockwork

>Lots of racemixing.
welcome to current year
>I shook his hand. Ew.
thats what you get for having zero social skills
i have already mastered the art of politely sneaking out of interactions with unpleasant people
just pretend to botch it by offering a fist pump and causing that awkward thing where ppl try to greet with different things, then you pretend to give up completely so you dont have to touch him
not that junkrats like you can ever hope to grasp the nuances of interacting with real humans
>He mistook me for 21
damn
wow
holy shit
lmao
ig you have already hit the wall, huh?
>I remember my boyfriend said something about me looking for his replacement and I denied it, and maybe I am not consciously doing it but I am, with this kid.
further proof that monkeybranching is a subconscious cuntoid instinct that they have no awareness of
they really are biologically wired to be whores and no amount of tradcuckoldry will ever fix that
>I don't wanna feel the pain of a breakup again.
and theres the fuel that feeds the machine of cycling abusive bfs
in my experience, pain that you avoid never really goes away
it just stays there
lurking in the backdrop of the mind
growing with compound interest
until the moment it can manifest again
how long do you think you can keep riding the abusive bf train until it finally crashes beyond repair?
>I was looking through coins trying to find something cool for that kid, because I wanna repay him for the coin he gave me. I did find a nickel from 1942 with a defect and 35% silver, he has a couple and I offered it to him and he said he wanted it.
>"why were you looking through coins? bored?"
>"yeah basicslly"
>Lol. Am I weird for doing this? Probably.
weird for falling in love instantly with the first male to talk to you after your break up?
not really
its p normal and expected
you were born to be a slut, after all

>its just sad seeing how I beat the hope out of him I guess.
ig its that same sadness after finishing a feast
eating all the food was so good, but after youre done and your belly is full and theres nothing left, it does feel kinda melancholic
so yea, ofc an emotinal vampire like you would feel sad after your latest prey has run dry
>His mom said every marriage/relationship has a similar issue and those who make it through are just resilient.
sounds suspiciously like cope
>I don't think she knows how badly I treat him though.
ofc not
shes a w*men
she has no idea the hell she puts her poonslave through either
>My cousin brought his girlfriend, she was making me irritated and uncomfortable by simply existing and representing everything I am not, being a normal human beingz socializing competantly, looking pretty and acting adult
welcome to the beginning of your true denpahell ride
buckle up
this is gonna be hella fun

>wtf wtf i didn't think id miss this part of having a bf i always dealt before
yea
sex is no big deal until you no longer have access to it
apparently this simple fact is impossible to be realized without living through it yourself
>holy shit is this what being male is like?? horny with no options???
this sounds like a rich person's first experience with hunger lmfao
<so this is what being poor is like, huh?
>Now ik why incels are so mad LMAO.
its not just that
there is also the added insult of being constantly gaslighted about it too
and generally having your entire experience invalidated by sexhavers
not that YOUR experience is valid tho
youre a female
you can just go to the street and spread your legs and literally be paid to have your desires satisfied
youre whining over nothing
>i drank like 3 sodas earlier and feel gross too
as you should, you fucking pig
ew
3 sodas?
i honestly dk how mutts can even drink one, let alone 3
go drink caustic soda next time and just fucking end it already

>Rn I feel so anxious and idk why, maybe something bad is happening and my 6th sense is warning me
>I am not really for any reason its killing me, I feel like I am dying
huh thats weird
i got the same feeling recently too
like might ribcage suddenly got a lot tighter
and i felt like crying and vomiting
i wonder if some eldritch god has been awakened or something
>that hook is probably not enough to support my weight
bitch just go outside
touch grass
tie it to a tree
>I am about 170 pounds anyone wanna chime in on this dilemma?
yea i want
how much is 170 pounds in a real measurement system?
whatever, doesnt matter
just do it like me
learn how to make bombs
then blow yourself up
literally go out with a bang
>i quickly shoved it under my bed but I forgot to move it back to my hiding spot what if she finds it????
isnt your bed part of the dumpster you call a room?
how would she even find it?
does she regularly rummage through your trash or something?
>I just wanna stop feeling this way.
suck it up, fuckaroo
the fun has just began
it will get worse still
>a club for walking
ahaha... a what?
wtf is that for realzies?
are zoomers so-
you-
ehhhh
i dont even
have fun ig
wow imagine having to join a club just to walk
clown world
>Just walking in circles on the track during my free period on 30 mins.
...okay?
>I actually wanted to see him
hey look everyone, lynn has fallen in love with the coin weirdo, lets laugh at her ahahahahaha
>he messaged me saying "sorry i wasn't at breakfast today but I will be tomorrow".
holy shit he is soooo in love with you
send him a clit pic already
>I told him I was cutting him off again
>again
pfffff classic lynn
>22 hours ago we were still broken up.
lol the way you phrase it
>Oh how I had fallen from grace.
what grace, hole?
thats p standard femoid behavior tbh
you just arent hiding how much of a whore you are anymore
oh yea, ig you care about honesty and integrity now, so you dropped the facade
good for you
>My sex drive has also been on like 200 for some reason like wtf
yup
going through the post-breakup slut phase
typical femoid
>perpetually bored craving stimulation
go study chemistry, brainlet
you have no idea how much fun the science of bombmaking is
its nothing like the boring stupid bland useless chem you learn at school
this is actual magic
literal alchemy
i feel like a wizard studying this shit
its like the high of learning computers all over again
>I practiced doing makeup, even though I hate makeup
oh no
oh shit
oh fuck
i knew i was bad, but i didnt know it was THAT bad
even wearing fakeup now?
you have truly gone full skank-mode, huh?
planning to offer the coin kid a blowie?
say youll do it for the rarest coin in his collection
100% he will accept
>accidently made it so it looked like i had a beard
honestly, you should just become a bio trans girl
thats a lot more dignified than whatever the fuck you are becoming
>I went to a local store which sells long skirts I like to wear and bought a couple
you bought even MORE clothes?!
couldnt you just rummage through the garbage pile you sleep on and find like 10 random skirts?
fucking hell, foids really love wasting money
>Skirts are epic btw men are missing out theyre so comfortable.
yea i wish i has born more feminine so i could femboymaxx and wear skirts
idk who tf thought pants are an acceptable thing to wear unironically
>wtf wtf male controlling possessiveness?
yea i bet youd be totally fine with him shagging his old sluts, huh?
>I said i wasn't serious and that we are still broken up but we are gonna keep sexxing until we move on/find someone else
fucking brutal
reminds me of a cuntoid i met irl who said the same thing to her bf
except they were actually together
she said she was just with him until she found the right man for her
idek how low your self respect needs to be for you to to stay with a slut who told you in no uncertain terms she is going to cuck you
>He got sad at the prospect, wallowed in sadness and sent me sad songs.
ewwwww thats so emo
why do you still talk to him?
>I decided to cut him off
>I woke up and added my bf
>then we had esex this morning and made up
>Then I unadded him
lmfao this is so hilarious
i wonder if he actually cares that you 'cut him off' or if he already understands you will always come crawling back
>My life is a circus
it sure it, toots...
it sure is...
anyway, keep the textwalls coming, this stuff is fire!

>I felt better while walking. So much better, infinitely better
you think walking is fun?
shit girl, you should try running
back when my soul was being gnawed on a daily basis by a pack of succubi, running was the only thing keeping me sane
like, when you are at the verge of a mental breakdown, thats like snorting cocaine
im not even kidding
theres literally a thing called "runner's high"
id link you a vid of a guy talking about why running is literally the best, but ik you wont watch so you can go floss with barbed wire instead
>I decided that I will base getting back together with my bf depending on how sad he cam make me when I don't have his presence.
i already knew w*men are purely emotional creatures, but seeing this just adds to my insight
leading on 2 men based entirely on how youre feeling today
i dont entirely know the machinations behind it (and i bet neither do you)
but it is what it is
i just gotta accept and plan accordingly
>when i broke up with my 2nd bf was 2 or 3 times as worse, it was chronic and lasted months
did you have a pack of simps to distract yourself with at the time?
>Idk if I actually have the capacity to feel that way anymore.
weak
thats just weak
and pathetic
youre pathetic
stop being pathetic
where my tigress?
wheres my sigma female?
this is just disgraceful
are you gonna live your whole entirely dependent on men?
you disgust me
youre just gross
honestly
*spits*

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>Why don't you start by cleaning your room?
useless dead weight cunthavers are raised to be incapable of doing any real work
and i mean literally incapable
she couldnt do it even if she tried
wouldnt even know where to begin
not that she will try
shell just keep complaining and never do anything about it, in typical femoid fashion
>It doesn't matter if it takes you 2 months
itd prolly just take like 30 minutes
her room is filled mostly with garbage that just needs to be disposed of
but her deep fried adhd zoomer brain can only comprehend tasks in terms of 'this is either done in 5 secs or takes forever'
so for her it unironically feels impossible to accomplish
>If your mother says something or if she tries to stop you because she's going to do it eventually, don't listen and keep cleaning as much as you want everyday.
lol she will just get into a knife fight with her instead
>At some point, she will help you and felt better herself.
idk what gave you the impression she has a functional family
her mom is even crazier than her

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anyway lynn, i already know you arent replying to this bc its too big (21kc, holy fuck lol) and i just mansplained how your adhd brain works
which is why im just antagonizing you
i dont wanna write an invested textwall only for it to be ignored
so i just write a bullipost instead bc when you dont reply, instead of feeling ignored, i just feel like i won bc i had the last word
yea its a dumb game bc im the only one playing, but its the only game i can play at this point
thinking about it, im p sure that this is how i started relentlessly bullying shinjifag
he was being a bitch and ignoring me, so i stopped trying to make any heartfelt posts, and just became vitriolic instead
bc as i said, if im gonna be ignored, thats how its gonna be
if the friendship is starting to fall apart, i might as well enjoy to fun of dismantling it myself
no need to waste time and energy just to go through all the pain of trying to restore a doomed relationship and still fail anyway
i prefer to just enjoy the ride while taking a piss off the window onto passersby
going with the flow? bitch, i surf the flow and do all sorts of acrobatic shit
i have transcended stoicism
'be dispassionate about what you cant control' my ass
if i cant control an event to go my way, at least i can enjoy making it a lot worse for everybody else
so yea, ig i just got tired of your bullshit and wont put up with being ignored anymore
i cant control you, i cant force you to reply, i cant make you not randomly start ignoring me
what i can do is vomit concentrated venom at you and have fun while doing it
ig all this frustration was building up for a long time
and now just seemed like the perfect moment to unleash it
you are defenseless
you have nowhere to go
the closest thing to an alternative you have is some faggot irl you barely even know and who has better ppl to talk to than you
so yea, this is the perfect moment to strike
i wish i could say this entire post is #ironic and /s
but the truth is that i really hope im hurting you
i wanna make you cry
and i want you to suffer for me
can you do that, 2nd besties? can you suffer for me? pretty please?
oh yea, and theres also hikari who is reading this rn and seething like hell
i see it as an added bonus lol
so yea, this is double fun for me
anyway dont feel like you need to reply to this (ik you wont)
just keep diaryposting
ig youre doing it to cope with the breakup btw
craving that sweet sweet moid attention thats so intoxicating for you
youd never diarypost if you still had your poonslave to play with
id like to see how your irl crush arc develops
and watch the moment all your hopes and dreams get crushed by the blackpill, just like me
i bet that will be extremely cathartic
so ill look forward for it
am i a bad friend for wanting to see you to crash and burn?
maybe
maybe...
yea defly lol
but comon kiddo, happiness is a zerosum game
so at least rejoice that your misery is being used to fuel the joy of someone you like

the weirdest part of all this is that i dont even feel like i actually hate you tbh
i think i just want you to be like me instead
battered and broken
having you smile and optimism systematically ground into a fine powder and blown into the wind

i wonder if this is what it was like when ppl were reading my denpahell oversharing textwalls
no wonder i got so much attention lol from an outsider perspective, this is quite fun to read

He asked me to the prom which is on june 3 apparently. I am fucking freaking out i told him i need to think about it because i don't wanna make anymore rash decisions and if i said yes this would be the absolute definite termination of my relationship with my ex
i have to tell my mom and i have to get a dress (i had hand me down prom dresses my aunt gave me 3 years ago but now im too fat for them and cant zip)
i have to do a lot of things
i feel like puking, i might not even be able to go if im in debt
i feel bad bc he was nervous about asking and i cant even answer
and im afraid my ex will kill himself, im so scared, and im afraid i will regret ending things with hik forever. if i do this there is no going back.
someone fucking help me decide.
The plot thickens and th3 spiral into vapid whoredom continues
nothing feels real and ive been panicking since then

not gonna read that textwall rn jeffie i canr focus

I just realised how fucking over it is with my bf and now i want to kms i want to fucking kms
why didnt i do it forever ago
why

btw i did read your text wall and literally giggled the entirety of it, barely stopped to breathe thanks lmao laughing did help a little

im more relaxed.
Something stuck with me.
he used the words "significant other"instead of "girlfriend" at one point.
is he bi??

>170 pounds
holly shit bitch i am like 20 kg's lighter and i am like fucking tall wtf
>bombs
>explosives
>bangs
i know that you wrote like 69 pages on improvised explosives recently but i think this shit is getting too deep into your brain
give it a break you are bringing up this shit everywhere now
>learn how to make bombs
>then blow yourself up
bitch can just pump methane from her gas plate or something you don't need cook shit to KYS while being a nuisance to the firefighters or a threat to the fags that happen to be around while you are putting an aerosol with a firecracker inside of your mouth to splatter your demented brain around poor pedestrians
srlsy have some compassion for the onlookers i don't want to see some bitch dying or even worse having to clean up her stinky rotten corpse
you ever lived in a flat?
well when some lonely pensioner fag dies alone at 70 years old he fucking rots in his apartment for multiple days and the smell is HORRIBLE
KYS by drowning or at least in some bumfuck nowhere where your corpse will rot peacefully
>you have no idea how much fun the science of bombmaking is
can you nigger pls fucking stop shilling explosives for a split fucking nanomillimicrosecond
it's like in every thread you are getting involved in rn
>I practiced doing makeup, even though I hate makeup
yeah you should learn chemistry
you know what they put inside of this shit?
most of it is blatantly fucking carcinogenic but you testosteronlets give zero fucks and put literal fucking benzine to make your deformed alien face look like some uncanny cheap plastic turing trespassing robotic abomination made by some boston niggers as a fucking joke
some of you thailand prostitute larpers will die from skin cancer before 50s
>running is literally the best
yeah sprinting on short distances is fun
but running more than two kilometers makes me wanna KMS
>muh garbage muh needs cleaning
set your curtains on fire that should motivate your retarded mother
or make use of the garbage and begin growing black mold and butolin while you are at it
or clean it your fucking self or something stop bitching about others bitching you are behaving just like them cli

P45114
No, it means he's a redditor.

P45105
>idk what gave you the impression she has a functional family
I don´t, thatś why I tried to help her and her mom be a normal human being.
When you are depressed, cleaning something can be already too taxing for your brain but living in a pile of garbage makes you more depressed. Doing something, even if it's not that much, everyday will make you feel better.
P45041
>Luckily that kid I know invited me to join a club for walking yesterday and I said yes. Just walking in circles on the track during my free period on 30 mins.
wtf is wrong with you people? is this a zoomer thing? Walking in circles for 30 minutes, what a waste of time ffs
>bf
Stop talking to him and masturbate to porn or a erotica book like a normal functional human being. You aren´t going to feel better if you keep talking with your toxic bf, he will always make you feel bad even if he changes (people don´t change btw).
Buy a clit sucking sextoy from amazon, every woman can cum with that. I use it with my wife all the time, she loves it.
You want to hang out with the weird coin boy, talk with him and spend quality time. He is as weird as [spoiler: we]you are, don´t push it too much.

Why americans can´t walk to go somewhere? They have to take their car, go to a park or something and walk there for hours. Why don´t they go to that park walking or I don´t know, to the grocery store like in the rest of the world?
I can understand you don't to walk everyday for more than 30-45 min but using your car for those distances is beyond retarded.

>He asked me to the prom which is on june 3 apparently.
this weekend?
lmfao good fucking luck
i doubt you would ever have the mental stability to handle something like that even if you had time to prepare
but if you cant even clean a tiny room in months, you sure as fuck wont be able to get your larp together for a major social event in a few days
esp with a boy that turns you into a blabbering mess just by existing lmfao
>I am fucking freaking out i told him i need to think about it
oh nooooo...
that poor poor boy...
the precious naive innocent little boy...
he is not gonna invite anyone else bc he doesnt wanna seem like a jerk for inviting someone else while you procrastinate rejecting him
then he is gonna go to the prom alone bc you wont have the balls
and thats when his dark journey into the blackpill will begin
all bc he made the mistake of talking to a bpd girl for 5 seconds at the worst possible moment (when shes looking for a new branch)
i actually feel sorry for him lol
i mean, imagine crossing paths with a demon like you
you could do the nice thing and just tell him rn that you wont go, and spare him and let him make better plans
but being a massive cunt, i bet you will spend the next few days calculating in your head which man might be better for you
bc thats all the female brain is ever used for
minmaxing her poonslavery
even worse if you tell you bf bc then he will do something to stop you from going to the prom
and then youll stand up the boy for sure
but not like you wont tell him, bc you are honest and integ- lmfao who am i kidding, obviously you are gonna tell him not for transparencys sake, but bc youre are in one of your moodswings and starts mindvomiting at him
so yea, it must be real fun ruining the lives 2 men at once
idk why twats complain about muh oppression tbh
if anything, theyre the ones who have been covertly oppressing men all these millennia
>i don't wanna make anymore rash decisions
<inb4 she makes a last-minute zero-thoughts decision like the typical fickle foid she is
>i had hand me down prom dresses my aunt gave me 3 years ago but now im too fat for them and cant zip
how the fuck can you not fit the dress your fat aunt used to wear?
whatever, just go with that one
i bet the compressed tuna look will fit you perfectly
>im afraid i will regret ending things with hik forever
given the slump that is your current situation, i think you will regret either way
this is why mentruators need a man to take control of their lives
they cant do it on their own
>if i do this there is no going back
lol as if thats gonna stop you from trying
<noooo baby plz plz plz, ik i cucked you, but plz take me backsies ;-;
ohoooo man, can you imagine if he actually has the spine to dump you?
then he finds another lg on discord to groom meanwhile your new irl crush finds out you are a repulsive psycho bc you lose your shit during the prom and never talks to you again and you literally lose everything bc you couldnt plug your oozing hole for 5 secs and think straight
>someone fucking help me decide
wheres your magic 8 ball?
honestly, i bet that thing is better capable of making decisions than you
anyway, since youre asking for my input
just take the dogpill lol
go /outside/ (scary, ik) find a cute stray mutt and breed it
>The plot thickens and th3 spiral into vapid whoredom continues
yea ig this is the default female route
boys become incels
girls become sluts
then in college the cycle continues to intensify and you get passed around and the boys in the fraternity know you as the best cumrag on campus
at least youll get to feel smug around the other girls bc all their bfs will be using you as their side bitch
>not gonna read that textwall rn jeffie i canr focus
lol can you ever focus?

>I just realised how fucking over it is with my bf and now i want to kms i want to fucking kms
its okay lynny-chan
youll be back together soon enough
has it been a week yet?
oh shit i think it has
yea nvm it super over for realzies this time
you totes wont come back after he cums inside you again and finally knocks you up in 2 weeks
>btw i did read your text wall and literally giggled the entirety of it, barely stopped to breathe thanks lmao laughing did help a little
yea np, everyone else here is having a good time laughing at you too
>he used the words "significant other"instead of "girlfriend" at one point.
>is he bi??
who the hell is he?
you bf or your bull?
anyway, 'significant other' is p pozzed language tbh
idk who tf decided to replace gf with that term
but its cringe
idk something about making it gender neutral makes it sound violently homosexual
theres is also something else that bothers, but i cant quite put my finger on what exactly it is
i just knows its makes me cringe whenever someone says it unironically

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>holly shit bitch i am like 20 kg's lighter and i am like fucking tall wtf
shes a hecking cute shotstack
her tummy also bounces around just like her tiddies and its totes adorbs
also youre literally dying
>i know that you wrote like 69 pages on improvised explosives recently
its currently at 82
>i think this shit is getting too deep into your brain
>give it a break you are bringing up this shit everywhere now
please respect my autism
it was the same deal that time i spent like a full week clicking links
>srlsy have some compassion for the onlookers i don't want to see some bitch dying or even worse having to clean up her stinky rotten corpse
lol just look at her room
what makes you think that leaving a huge mess behind is beneath her?
>can you nigger pls fucking stop shilling explosives for a split fucking nanomillimicrosecond
>it's like in every thread you are getting involved in rn
whatever man
explosives are fun
also, arent you the one who cant stfu about that on irc too?
youre the one who groomed me into becoming an unazoomer
now suck it up
>most of it is blatantly fucking carcinogenic
maaaaaan
theres this one episode of the boondocks
one of the kids is a domestic terrorist who makes bombs in his house
his grampa finds the highly explosive compounds he create, but he lies and says its actually a hair product
and the grandad tries the product and he actually gets real amazing hair
then he tries to sell the product to a beauty agency or something like that, but the kid then says the product is actually highly explosive and not safe
and the ceo of the company (crazy old lady) says it doesnt fucking matter
women are willing to put literal radioactive waste on their face if they think it will make them look prettier
then kid says itd be illegal to sell something like that, but she says they just need to put it on a label
and they do put a big bold label on the packaging saying it is highly explosive, but guess what?
hoes still buy it like its water
ik its satire and all, but honestly its not too far from the truth lmfao
bitches be crazy
>testosteronlets
lol nice
>but running more than two kilometers makes me wanna KMS
i wish i could run for 10km like saitama tbh
but i think the most i could manage was like 7
and at a fairly slow pace
not sprinting ofc holy shit idk if anyone can sprint for 10km
more like light jogging

anyway guys sorry for disappearing all day
ik you missed me very much bc im the most important pillar of this community
but like uhhhhh how can i explain it
yall mf arent the only friends i got
irl me and the boys went on a road trip today
i had to wake up early which kinda sucks but its like wow damn this is just the best you know
just one car full of dudes and a dream
honestly, being with the lads is just pure joy, nomesayin
bitches on the other hand are too much drama
ok yea alright, i wrote extensively about my neck sniffing escapades and how fun that sort of thing is
but also like, its too much stress, so its kinda defeats the whole purpose of having fun
not when its just the MEN getting together and leaving their nagging wives and gfs home
most of the time we were on the car we were just talking stupid boy shit
and also talking directions bc im p sure we were completely lost 90% of the time lmfao
the whole thing lasted like 7h, but we could have done it in 4 if the driver plus everybody else werent retarded
yea sure, we COULD have used jewgle maps
but wheres the fun in that
thatd totes negate the whole principle of road tripping tbh
so yea i feel really sorry for you nolifers that have no irl friends to go on roadtrips with
like idek how the hell you can cope with that
ig it was like me up til yesterday
you just didnt know it was a thing and that it was the best thing
but now you do
so good luck living your frenless life with this knowledge now
on an unrelated note: i fucked up my ankle and now literally cannot walk
but i mean, going on a road trip with the boys and NOT doing something really stupid that results in severe bodily injury is pretty fucking pointless, isnt it?
thankfully we were already on the way back, so they just had to carry me back to the car and hit the road
so yea i dont wanna lie and say its all flowers and sunshine
when something good happens, you gotta pay the price
like getting home late and having to eat cold lunch
so maybe if it hadnt lasted 3h more than it needed to, id still have 2 functional feet and be eating a warm meal rn
or maybe we would have gotten involved in a car accident and died horribly
you never know how this sort of shit butterflies around
whatever, would do it again
you have no idea the kind of crazy shit that happens lmao

>my wife
who's your waifu?
mine is homu because she's cute and funny and has similar hobbies like stalking underage girls and soldering and cooking and she wears glasses i like glasses they are so kawaii >///<

P45298
That shit doesn't look healthy.

>20 kgs lighter
>also youre literally dying
well fuck you niggers that can taste food for me it's like benzine
>youre the one who groomed me into becoming an unazoomer
yeah ig my fault
>high explosive hair product
yk what
shit like that exists
doctahs use nitroglycerin to fuck with your heart rate
hair bleaches actually contain fucking acetone
i am not even going to begin with perfumes those were designed based on third reich chemical weapon research program
there were weight loosing pills in germany that were explosive
they help you to loose weight better than meth tho
you usually die tho
>i wish i could run for 10km like saitama tbh
i heard that like on four kilometers your body begins to burn through some reserves and goes into some energy saving mode so you are bound to feel like shit after
all marathon runners say that they want to die after the run
>not sprinting ofc holy shit idk if anyone can sprint for 10km
it's possible
with some drugs
but you know when you push shit to the limit it begins to crumble and you may die even before you reach those 10kmselfs
>irl me and the boys went on a road trip today
nice try to cover you loosing your fingers while fucking explosives all day yesterday
>neck sniffing escapades
the fuck are those?
sounds gay

P44467
>i recently did a major fuck up in my life that will have long-term consequences, yet i feel nothing about it
You got pozzed [became HIV positive] dear sir? Very old news.

>niggers that can taste food
that what you get for putting explosives in your mouth, dumbfuck
if you wanna test for impurities, just run a simple pH test like a sane individual
or idk, just run another purification process
its not like recrystallization costs money
>shit like that exists
id dont even doubt it
>nitroglycerin to fuck with your heart rate
yea i heard of that
it makes blood pumps better or something
prolly bc your heart knows there are explosives in your bloodstream and wants to get that shit away for it asap
>perfumes
they i always got a little lightheaded when i sniffed a girl teehee
>there were weight loosing pills in germany that were explosive
>they help you to loose weight better than meth tho
>you usually die tho
yea when your legs get blown off you sure lose of a lot of weigh
>you are bound to feel like shit after
yup i sure do
but there is also the good feeling of 'i did it' that balances it out
>when you push shit to the limit it begins to crumble
yea the body tries to restore homeostasis and just fucking dies in the process lmfao
>the fuck are those?
>sounds gay
nah its actually super straight
its when you grab a girl and snort her neck

P45322
Not an argument

P45323
Not an argument

>can't taste food
>that what you get for putting explosives in your mouth
i was like that before i started using any funny powders
>or idk, just run another purification process
>its not like recrystallization costs money
each recrystallization lowers my yield so not economically viable

>i was like that before i started using any funny powders
why?
is it some sort of deficiency or something?
i remember one time i went 3 days without food and my mouth got a permanently metallic taste which only went away the day after i ate something
i barely even ate the 1st after bc it tasted like rust
even water had a bad taste
although, i also didnt drink anything during that time
so maybe it was the severe dehydration that fucked up my taste buds
and yea the 'you cant survive more than 3 days without water' meme is gake and fay
i was just fine
maybe feeling a little funny in the head
but im used to that

btw i just woke up in the middle of the night feeling like shit
im sick
i was already feeling a small headache when i was writing about flashpowder, but now its 1000x worse
is this what messing with funny chemical does to a mf?
no wonder youre dying fucking hell
i maybe i caught something during the roadtrip, that could be it too, considering that i have only messed with salt-
oh yea i was also breathing plastic vapours yesterday huh?
yeaaaaaaaaaaaaa... doing that shit prolly wasnt such a great idea

>Sitting in history class and some kid is bragging about how he knows how to access the "black web"
If you see this, hi Nasher lmao

Shit my thread has been popping since I have been gone uwu
P45293
>Doing something, even if it's not that much, everyday will make you feel better.
I always hear this but eventually it makes me worse bc I have to confeont hpw bad it actually is.
>wtf is wrong with you people? is this a zoomer thing? Walking in circles for 30 minutes, what a waste of time ffs
It was started as a joke but walking in circles was kinda preferable to sitting in tutorial. Helped me feel less stressed, its easy to feel pent up sitting in a fucking chair doing boring useless ass shit for 8 hours. Since then I start deliberately taking long ways to my classes because it feels nice.
>Stop talking to him and masturbate to porn or a erotica book like a normal functional human being.
Porn is gross
Erotica is ok but sometimes the description make me cringe
The only porn I discovered that is arousing is gentle amateur vids of girls masturbatin/being masturbated, no sex toys or anything
>You want to hang out with the weird coin boy, talk with him and spend quality time. He is as weird as [spoiler: we]you are, don´t push it too much.
Yeah I like him kinda but our conversations have been dwindling in quality bc im retarded
It takes a lot of effort and with other shit on my mind I don't have the headspace. I hope he doesnt realize I am boring.
I don't worry too much with him bc I realized that with a lot of people they are probably similarly stressed as you with social things, and he definitely is bwcause he will randomly apologize for ways he may have slighted me which are totally imaginary. So now I try not to worry and remember even if I did do something wrong he is probably overthinking something he did too much to care.
P45294
America is not walkable and very car dependant. I live like 30 mins from my school by car. Stores nearby would at least be an hour walking trip and some sidewalks aren't suitable.
P45295
I said yes. Suck my dick. He bought my ticket. My mom said she would take me to get a dress today but he said he isnt wearing a fancy suite (but he is wearing nice clothes im not going with a hillbilly) so I can probably just wear a dress I have.
I am actually mostly worried about when he comes to pick me up bc I hide a lot of my personal life from my parents but i told him things like ahout my bf and I dont want conflict to arise that way.
I am panicking wondering if its actually a date, I mean it seemed obvious bc he had previously called me pretty, not like we are super great friends, and when he asked me he said "dont laugh at me for asking". So I dont think its a friends thing? But maybe it is and I will embarass myself lol, because my mom was confused by all this.
>i bet the compressed tuna look will fit you perfectly
Audibly laughed
>then he finds another lg on discord to groom
LOL he was on soc looking for people to talk to then emailed me all sad bc he met someone who reminded him of me
I asked "why sre you looking for my replacement" and says he doesn't want to date anyone else and he thinks shell ghost him, but thats crap lmao. Next grooming victim.

bleeding grounds? why not breeding grounds?

P45357
>"black web"
Racist ass nigga. Networks have no race or color.
>walking in circles
There is such a depth of autism to this, you couldn't imagine it. I won't tell you no matter what you say or do.

P45357
>with a lot of people they are probably similarly stressed as you with social things
damn idk, maybe current year terminally online zoomers
im just extremely carefree when talking to ppl
at least with the boys
not that youd know
imagine not having samesex friend fufufu
>Suck my dick.
<lowkey adimitting that penis is the superior sex organ
>I am panicking wondering if its actually a date
>So I dont think its a friends thing?
damn bitch, did you dump your bf just to get friendzoned?
thatd be hilarious
>he was on soc
wait, did you mean /soc/?
fucking hell, is there any non-cringe place to groom lgs?
do lgs really only hang out on cringe places?

anyway, can you get a piece of charcoal and rub it against the mold growing in your room?
i had some mold in my bathroom, but unfortunately it doesnt produce nitrate
if your mold produces sparks when scratched with coal, then idk mail a sample to me lol
ill need it for... things
gardening
yea, ill need it for gardening
and while youre at it, send me a crochet/whatever like picrel to me thx

P45373
shes infertile
got pounded by bwc until she bled several times now and still no brat to speak of
literally unbreedable

P45386
>Networks have no race or color.
but they do
tor is purple
idk what that black web is tbh
but yea, if he is saying 'web' instead of 'net', then he has no idea wtf he is getting into
>There is such a depth of autism to this
yea and its p low functional
also imagine walking instead of running
do tithavers really?

>literally unbreedable
shit should have said
bleedable but unbreedable
thatd be funnier

the what

>is it some sort of deficiency or something?
i can actually taste food but it just tastes like shit
something in my brain is broken idk
there are meds that increase your appetite but those don't allow you to enjoy food
they just make you so hungry you will eat any shit
and like on of them is an addictive weed derivative
the other one is a blatant fucking anabolic steroid from testosterone
and the third is so fucking lethal i have no idea why is it approved
everything else has weight gain as a side-effect and you don't want to pop this shit
>im sick
>is this what messing with funny chemical does to a mf?
tf you were doing?
chlorates aren't supposed to induce headaches
they fuck up your respiratory system
well yeah you will feel a bit funny in the head when inhailing some but i never head proper headaches after
>oh yea i was also breathing plastic vapours yesterday huh?
yeah that's basically like benzine but worse
shit gives you cancer you should avoid those
>Porn is gross
dearranged chromosomes make you hentai blind?
life must be dreadful
>i had some mold in my bathroom, but unfortunately it doesnt produce nitrate
because it needs fucking nitrates to ferment
pee on your walls everyday and it will appear in like 10 months
i believe that guy with nitrates growing in his basement had enriched soil rubbing against his walls

P45399
Yeah this is a fabricated image that's p obvious by the church in the left corner
the funny part is that fucktards in twitter baited and thought it was real
because gardening is p close to making bombs

P45409
https://edition.cnn.com/2021/12/14/us/national-parks-history-racism-wellness-cec/index.html
camping is racist

yeah camping is based
never camped btw

P45386
>There is such a depth of autism to this, you couldn't imagine it.
I swear, walking club was began as a joke just to see if it would get approved. Its not much of a club its just something to do besides sit on your ass. Walking feels nice, why are you so opposed to exercise??
P45373
Because I am menstruating (bleeding, AKA overemotional cunthaver things) all over the grounds (this thread)
P45388
Cute birdies
Amigurumi is fucking useless though and I frown upon crocheters wasting their time making retarded childrens toys
I actually am getting more stressed with talking to him because I am so bad at conversation w have been sitting in silence like the past 2 days
i cant conversation when it has no obvious purpose
Sometimes people will just say things they are thinking that are completely irrelevant or unnecessary and I go "why did you feel the urge to share this" ans then I realized normal people just like talking about stupid bullshit.
I am sitting with him at lunch today, usually we both sit alone. I found out we actually have it the same block but i went to a different building because right after lunch i have my 3rd period there, but i can eat at his building and just leave lunch a little early
i am looking up conversation topics so it doesnt lag, trying to prepare shit
>damn bitch, did you dump your bf just to get friendzoned?
No i think its a date now
Apparently he is getting me a corsage which is like a flower bracelet, he asked what color my dress was. I didnt know why at first but my mom kept saying im supposed to get him some flower pin to wear so i just asked him and he said his dad said he was supposed to get me a corsage so we are doing that.
Fuuuck I am anxious about this
My dress is yellow btw, I have had it a long time. Mustard color and it goes to the floor, has like an empire (?) waistline, the front is gathered.
Yesterday I had to bu na sweater to wear over it because its spegetti straps and i have recent arm scars i need to hide. I got a sexy blazer that made me look like a dominatrix but everyone keeps saying it will be too hot so I have a small cardigan.
My mom asked why if i was arm slicing bc I was so adamant about having sleeves and I looked her straight in the face and lied. She prolly knows but doesn't want to so she didnt make me show her my arms, but if im caught shell be pissed for lying lol. Technically she phrased it fresh cuts and i dont really have any, they are all healed but still within a couple months old.
>also imagine walking instead of running
I can run when my period isn't coming. I used to opt to run in gym class instead of walk for warmups bc that also soothed my crushing feelings in my chest but i forgot about it
except when my period was coming
P45391
Holy shit you have those tasting issues too? so do i my taste has been fucked like 2.5 years now, its called dysgeusia
my lazy whore doctor ignored me when i told her, maybe the menopause was particularly bad that day so she couldn't think straight and take my health concerns seriously.

Had some ex bf drama, i wrote him a cring letter. We are both ready to just move on and were on ok terms. I contacted him last night because i qm a lonely dependant whore, then this morning we fought again and i blocked.Its over and I am fine with that now. I have an endless string off boys to cater to my needs and distract me from the giant hole he left in my life.

Diarrhea just leaked out my arsehole while in class
ive been in a perpetual state of anxiety for days and i have god awful indigestion
Destroyed my appetite too, but I have been drinking ice tea so maybe that fuckef me up
Thank god I wore underwear today, I almost didnt bother. I am wearing an ankle length skirt so if i shit myself withe no underwear that would have been very bad indeed.
I took off my underwear and thrrw them away in the tampon trashcan thing

>then I realized normal people just like talking about stupid bullshit.
you seem to like this too
>Holy shit you have those tasting issues too?
yeah
>my taste has been fucked like 2.5 years now
i am pretty sure i was born like that
maybe my taste buds haven't developed due to an extremely poor or narrow diet
>dysgeusia
i don't feel any extra tastes on my food i mostly don't feel tastes at all
if you are bitching about yourself then wtf
how's it even caused?
hormonal bullshit?
dam hard being a bitch

P45510
>you seem to like this too
Example of what I mean:
Some girl gets off my bus and before the bus driver goes "I didnt see you at first on here until you poked your head up" and I am thinking "what an irrelevant piece of information. You know she is on the bus now and you stopped at her correct stop, why is it necessary to share this? Stfu man no one wants to talk to you"
>how's it even caused?
A few different ways
Vitamin deficiencies, gingivitis, pregnancy, nasal polyps, diabeetus, my doctor told me it was because of the china flu, but its been almost 3 years and it still changes sometimes.
Some get better some get worse.

>gingivitis
who?
>Some get better some get worse.
you are morbidly obese
70kg wtf
eating less would only make you feel better

P45512
I am 173 cm
My bmi is like 26 I think
Obese is 30
Morbidly obese is 40
So no

>bmi
you are american so you are the definition of obese
stop bullshitting yourself

>i can actually taste food but it just tastes like shit
>something in my brain is broken idk
was it always like this?
wtf is wrong with you?
did you eat red hot coal everyday when you were little or something?
>they just make you so hungry you will eat any shit
thats basically the point of hunger tbh
its kinda funny how p much all of human psych is based around pain
you basically have to balance which pain is the lesser pain
eating shit, or going hungry?
being alone for 5 minutes, or having 10 abusive bfs?
being cucked, or being redpilled?
holding back the sneeze, or having to clean piss all over the bathroom?
>and like on of them is an addictive weed derivative
oh yea it makes sense since weed makes ppl super hungry
>the other one is a blatant fucking anabolic steroid from testosterone
damn so it forces you to eat AND makes you even more jacked?
sounds based tbh
>and the third is so fucking lethal i have no idea why is it approved
ig the lethality is a feature, not a bug
so when ppl are dying they decide to go out while eating tasty food
>everything else has weight gain as a side-effect and you don't want to pop this shit
whhaaaaaaaaaat???? wdym eating food makes you gain weight?????
>chlorates aren't supposed to induce headaches
im not fucking with that shit yet
recrystallization is a meme, remember?
>they fuck up your respiratory system
isnt that chlorine gas?
yea ik chlorates are toxic, but idk what the symptoms are
>shit gives you cancer you should avoid those
im already eating and breathing micro plastics everyday anyway, so what difference does it even make
might as well just overdose
>dearranged chromosomes make you hentai blind?
ikr
bitch prolly never heard of mesugaki
or straight shota
or gesugao
or The Pose
damn its kinda wack how much hentai jargon i have accumulated in my brain lol
ig cooming really causes neural tissue degeneration
>life must be dreadful
bruh
imagine
just for 5 secs imagine
if your cock suddenly started bleeding for like a whole week for no reason
and it doesnt even kill you
yea shits crazy
>because it needs fucking nitrates to ferment
>pee on your walls
wtf, there is nitrate on the pee?
why not just filter it myself today instead of waiting for stupid germs to do it next year
cant i just distill piss or something?
also what funny chemicals are in semen that can be used?
i think there is zinc
yea yea zinc can be used for thermite, at least
kinda gross ik
but look, if crazy feminists can use their pussy blood to bake cakes and other crazy shit like that
then a crazy sigma male can use his cum to make extremely exothermic redox reactions, okay? okay.
>gardening is p close to making bombs
and canning is p close to prepping
so basically, if he is doing something that could be done in cdda, he is a neonazi

sowwy linny, im gonna read more about fun chems rn so ill [bold: Reply To Your Post Later™]
>70kg wtf
>I am 173 cm
wait wtf that mutt number actually meant 70kg?
damn bitch, how can you be shorter and fatter than me?
i can understand mahiron bc he is malnourished
but like damn, i eat like a king everyday and i still manage to not be a fat sack of lard like you
and i gotta agree with P45514 bmi is just cope for fatsos
tbh i could be thinner
i have a noticeable belly when i sit down
but at least i dont gaslight myself with a made up number
im overweight and thats that

anyway, i finished watching madoka
dammit it could have been such a based fucking anime
it was gigablackpilled all throughout
but it just HAD to get gay at the end, didnt it?
muh ascension to godhood, muh everything will be fine
i mean ok it wasnt a total deus ex machina as this sort of shit usually is
but its still gay
and apparently there is more
ugh
idk if ill watch it if its just gonna turn out gay
and there wasnt even any real yuri to speak of
which is the only acceptable kind of gay
imma write a review later maybe idk

LRH, you dumb slut, your problems stem from the head meds you're on. Get off them. I can't guarantee you'll be overall better, but you'll be your actual self, minus whatever permanent damage the head meds have done already.

>damn so it forces you to eat AND makes you even more jacked?
it also make you behave like a 6 year old retard and when you get off from it YOU FUCKING DIE
you also often become impotent and can't fuck bitches so idk why would you want to get jacked if you loose your cock and balls in the process
>whhaaaaaaaaaat???? wdym eating food makes you gain weight?????
very slowly tho
i just shoot syntol straight into my muscles that's the current meta
>recrystallization is a meme
a post ironic one
>yea ik chlorates are toxic, but idk what the symptoms are
they also fuck with your respiratory system just like chlorine
you can google symptoms that you get from drinking bleach
they are p much in the same category
if you will snort some chlorate like cocaine you will feel yourself just like a french trench digger
it's actually p poisonous and EXTREMELY water soluble
if someone will take just one sip from a glass with some chlorate he probably won't die with enough medical care but his insides are fucked
>>because it needs fucking nitrates to ferment
>>pee on your walls
>wtf, there is nitrate on the pee?
technically yeah it's basically everywhere in living organisms
but it's a mistake for fermentation to begin you need either ammonia or urea both of which are present in your piss
if it's like yellow and healthy if you are someone like me with either violet vitamin overdose or acetone pure heart failure maybe it won't
basically there are microbes that make nitrates from piss and urea
those microbes are everywhere but piss isn't
they also need some element to pass the nitrates on
like calcium
in the guys basement shit for nitrification prolly got through the rich soil into his walls
maybe he actually peed on his walls idk he sounds like he's on kilos of grass maybe there's a growbox weed farm in his basement
>also what funny chemicals are in semen that can be used?
sperm ig
but there's also citric acid and potassium
would be funny if someone exploded a pony jar
>muh ascension to godhood, muh everything will be fine
it gets BTFO DRASTICALLY in the movie just wait for it
>i have a noticeable belly when i sit down
when i look down on my belly it actually looks fat
but then i see how i look in profile from my mirror and all the angle illusions are swayed off
i have been soldering shit for the four days straight my brain is fucked at this point i don't know any productive things i can do in pauses between soldering and if i won't do anything productive imaginary insects will begin to torture me in my bed again

P45900
I have been off meds since like October
P45872
>sowwy linny, im gonna read more about fun chems rn so ill [bold: Reply To Your Post Later™]
Dont care didnt ask
>wait wtf that mutt number actually meant 70kg?
Idk where you got 70 kgs from, I used to he 7 kgs but now I am 77 kgs
>but like damn, i eat like a king everyday and i still manage to not be a fat sack of lard like you
Because you are a man. Men are taller, they have muscle which burns more calories just existing than fat does, and you have testosterone. Men are built to burn fat women are built to hold onto it. There is no excuse for male obesity. Its why so many trannies get fat after going on e, they lose muscle mass and estrogen burns less fat, but theyre retarded and still eat like males.
>tbh i could be thinner
Starve urself fatass
>but at least i dont gaslight myself with a made up number
Overweight is a medical term and these are the medical definitions of being overweight. You can be fat and not overweight.

P45924
Good, now cure your feminism and you will become non-shit.

>Starve urself fatass
you are a properly functional human being so you can turn excess fat into muscle
you can weight 120kg and be p healthy

FUCK WRONG PIC MEANT TO POST THIS

P45962

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P45900
no dumbass
women are inherently mentally defective
they need meds in order to be functional

P45902
>it also make you behave like a 6 year old retard and when you get off from it YOU FUCKING DIE
sounds like a cool sissification drug tbh
>you also often become impotent and can't fuck bitches
i already dont fuck bitches, so might as well look good while at it
>it's actually p poisonous and EXTREMELY water soluble
wow i cant believe they just let ppl buy shit that can easily be used to poison the water supply
its a real miracle society can function tbh
anyway madman with the right knowledge can fuck it all up
>they also need some element to pass the nitrates on
>like calcium
so i just need to pee on bones/bananas and it will magically produce highly explosive compounds?
>sperm ig
>but there's also citric acid and potassium
cool so i can just piss and cum to make KNO3
>would be funny if someone exploded a pony jar
i bet this is someones fetish
>it gets BTFO DRASTICALLY in the movie just wait for it
hmmm sounds based
>if i won't do anything productive imaginary insects will begin to torture me in my bed again
idk man
just dont do drugs ig
werks for me

P45924
>now I am 77 kgs
oh damn like ok i was half joking about the fat tits thing, but now i unironically believe you have saggy fat udders that go *plap plap* on your knees everytime you run and thats why you just walk in circles instead

P45962
>you are a properly functional human being so you can turn excess fat into muscle
>you can weight 120kg and be p healthy
ehhhhhhhh can the heart even properly pump blood into gigantic bulging muscles?
wouldnt that cause some sort of heart condition in the long run
its actually p retarded that the heart is a muscle, but somehow it functions worse over time if you put too much stress on it
anyway wtf is this femboy shit
is this some sort of guide for high-grade male prostitutes or something
imagine regulating your diet to get soft skin and girly smell
also
>AVOID: red meat, dairy, eggs, fried food
>EAT MORE: plants, soy, alcohol, tea
this has to be ironic it just has to be

P45963
fake pic
how can goku be muslim with that shitty beard?

>I have been off meds since like October
isnt that when you started going insane?
case in point ig

ok so yea madoka
its start p slowly
i thought it was gonna be a gay little anime, but it started getting more and more based every episode
like that dumb blond bitch mommy tries to be a goodie 2 shoes and impress the other glag apprentices, but dies a horrible death instead
meanwhile homura is busy being baste and telling all the glags whats what and how things work
but reality is too bleak and their bluepilled asses refuse to accept it
only to be forced to say 'homura was right' over and over again
oh yea and i like how being a magical girl is a fate worse than death that slowly drives them mad
like that girl
i already forgot the name lol
the cuckquean
who wasted her wish on boy just so her friend could steal him
yea then she loses her shit
>hurrr magical girls are supposed to be good
that aged like milk lol
as soon as she got blackpilled she just started rampaging
meanwhile the other hoes are also going mad by the revelation that magical girls are actually dead husks of their former human selves that are harvested like humans in the matrix
so yea that was terabasado
i love cosmic horror anime
meanwhile homura just doesnt give a flying fuck
deadass shes easily the single most basongas animegirl in animehistory
eats blackpills for breakfast like theyre cereal, doesnt even care
bc she is too busy with her sigma grindset to give a damn
also lmfao she literally steals guns and rocket launchers from the mafia and military to use it to fight witches
instead of using magic like a bitch
yea queen, just fill the cunts with hot lead
peak witch-fighting strats
and also learned to make bombs on the internet (literally me) to blow fuckers up
so that shows she is high iq
unlike the other dumb nigresses that think they just need to say some bullshit about love and theyll win the fight somehow lmfao
get fucked
and yea her backstory had everything to be cringe, but its actually very basalto
its the usual 'fighting for an old promise' kinda bullshit
except it slowly breaks her down and she goes from shy and uwu to mean and goth
honestly, we need to put more animegirls into the blackpill pipeline
thatd make a lot of anime a lot more watchable, no cap
the ending is kinda gay but i cant really hate it bc madoka's wish is basically what id wish
bc i was thinking
>if i was a gay little animegirl and the literal devil offered me any wish in exchange for my soul, what would i ask for
then i thought
>wouldnt it be funny if i wished to nullify every other girl's wish (past, present and future) just out of spite?
so then thered be no incentive for anyone to be a magical girl
so only the most deranged powertripping bad bitches would ever wanna become one
yea im sure the outcome would be hilarious
also theres the whole motif of karmic balance there
so by making a shitty wish like that id be create a lot of good somehow
like if i wished that, the ayylmaos wouldnt have invaded earth to eat human souls bc they wouldnt be generating energy anymore
so id have accidentally saved humanity by being a jackass
yea thatd be p basinga tbh
oh yea, and they say the alien are responsible for human civilization and shit
so they are also responsible for the industrial revolution and its consequences
so by btfoing them, id be restoring humanity to its based balanced state of harmony
so yea, thatd actually be the bestest with ever tbh

this is now a madoka thread btw

lrh can you pop me your discord
P46106
gay little anime girl is based

P46211
Miserere Mei#0481
What for

bruuuuuuuuuuuuuh she posted her discord


















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>wow i cant believe they just let ppl buy shit that can easily be used to poison the water supply
the thing is you can just distill it again to remove the poison if you are a citizen with a tap infected by chlorates so yeah not really effective
they actually use flourdie to "disinfect" it so it's not that far from poisonous
but adding shit like hydrazine or oil into water
yeah it will fuck it up so much they would need to shut it down for the whole pipeline while cleaning or straight up replacing the tanks
targeting food supply is way funnier chlorates are weed killers yk?
sprinkle some in someones garden and they are fucked
>just dont do drugs ig
no fun in that
how am i supposed to live without being dependent on highly controlled funny chemicals that make your memory slowly disappear
>femboy guide
>this has to be ironic it just has to be
/g/ in the list of contributors tells you everything you need to know
>the cuckquean
sayaka
yeah p fun moment
>yea then she loses her shit
holly shit that scene with her bimbofication is so fucking good
the pathway to a bossfight is made amazingly well and her OST is fucking your eardrums HARD
>also lmfao she literally steals guns and rocket launchers from the mafia and military to use it to fight witches
>instead of using magic like a bitch
>yea queen, just fill the cunts with hot lead
the QB thought that her time controlling abilities are so fucking OP he needed to nerf her by removing magical weapons
the thing is that works
yk how she pricks that flying circus in the beginning and that epic fighting scene in the end
she can't do shit because her weapons are magical
they mean jack shit to witches
literal hundreds kilograms of explosives barely scratch that bitch

>madoka thread
watch this and learn that being meguca is suffering
watch?v=TrgxHDoe8gA

>they actually use flourdie to "disinfect" it so it's not that far from poisonous
nice, so i dont even need to do anything
its all already poisoned
>how am i supposed to live without being dependent on highly controlled funny chemicals that make your memory slowly disappear
by having a waifu and reminding yourself everyday that shed want you to be nice and healthy
>sayaka
oh yea that one
there is also the glutton sperglord whose personality is that shes always eating
also forgot her name
>the pathway to a bossfight is made amazingly well and her OST is fucking your eardrums HARD
oh yea and another thing i forgot to talk about is how fucking amazing the labyrinths are
i like how they have a completely different aesthetic from the real world
and the weird way things move in there
truly feels like a place outside of time and space
idk how they can even fight witches in there tbh
id just be mesmerized by the little fuckers in there
go dance among the ballerinas or something
>he needed to nerf her by removing magical weapons
they only made her even more OP bc now she uses bombs instead of gay magic lmao
>literal hundreds kilograms of explosives barely scratch that bitch
i think it was more of a witch thing than a bomb thing
bc every other witch just went down p easily after getting a nice blast

>watch this and learn that being meguca is suffering
yup suffering really is suffering

anyway im gonna take a break from bomb research
im sick af and incapable of focusing
also i have started having dreams about writing about bombs and that means i should prolly stop doing that for a few days

honestly wtf OP keeps coming back to this shithole
anyway gaes found this absolute comedy gem

P46879
yea i dont really understand wtf was going on in there either
its like the bitches were just tossing at random
not even looking at the board
when she put in an occupied square it was just hilarious

>there is also the glutton sperglord whose personality is that shes always eating
i wouldn't call that her personality
she's just eating all the time tbh there's not a lot of accent on it
i think her personality is being a tracy trad christian wife until her father died and she whored out and became one of the ballas gang members
honestly she's p based and blackpilled too
when you first see her she gives zero fucks about human lifes and was beating dumb bitches that don't know how to min-max grief seeds
sadly she became gay af and died with sayaka
well she was kinda irrelevant anyway
>literal hundreds kilograms of explosives barely scratch that bitch
>i think it was more of a witch thing than a bomb thing
nah i think witches are by default way more susceptible to magic and this one is just tough enough to truly shine with her immunity to soulless barrels
like yk mommy's muskets are old af but BTFO bitches with one good shot and homu needs to place a shitload of bombs before actually killing the thing
i post the same fucking picture again
i have another ones that suit the post but those fit better so i use them

Omgomgomgwtf
Ok so he picked me up at 630 and we took pictures then went to his grandpas and got a fancy car that he was borrowing.
That all went fine. We didn't really touch eachother until we got to his grandpas, I guess nervous. At his grandpas he asked to put his arm around me and I said yes. On the way there we didn't talk a lot, I really dont like the pressure to constantly talk. Ill be in the car with anyone else and then just be completely unresponsive while they talk to themselves trying to spark a conversation in vain. I actually didn't even think about how weird this is until I was working on my social skills and awareness so I could talk to him better, then I realized how abnormal it is for me to just sit there while people are talking at me.
Anyways in the car I helped him navigate, when we got there I realized I fucking forgot my student ID which I was pretty sure I needed to get in, and I started freaking out. He said "Hey, its gonna be fine" and he took my hand, and it reminded me of when me and my ex bf first met in person and I was having a much much worse anxiety attack and he took my hand for the first time to try and calm me down.
I ended up being able to pull something up on my phone that had what I needed to get in, so it was ok.
At the prom we got there, no fucking idea what to do. Most awkward people ever. We walked around, he saw some people he knew. He didn't want to dance, and neither did I because I hate dancing in public I feel weird. We got our picture taken in a photo booth. I wanted to touch him though. Eventually we sat down and for the majority of prom we just sat, it was kinda awkward but it was nice because he put his arm around me and held me, a lot of the time we were silent but we talked. It was nice, I liked sitting there with him but I guess the point of prom is not to sit and do nothing. He hated the music and the lights and so did I. We were the most awkward couple there.
We kept looking at eachother and smiling, then one of us would go "what" and then the other would say "nothing, what?" "nothing". and it would go on like that.
It was nice.
When there was only 15 mins left and the cleanup began we went to this area of the place where it was hosted, a large bridge with windows. On the elevator people from what i think was a nearby hotel were there. Asked us about prom. We walked away and I thought they were gone and I said "those people smelled like booze kinda didn't they" and he goes "theyre right behind you" and we started laughing.
When we got there he asked to dance, no musicnor anything, less crowded, like a slow dance. We did and kept staring at eachother and giggling, people were nearby and one person actually got proposed to. It was hilarious. People kept walking bye and it was so weird.
Then he goes "i have a question" and he kept stopping what he was saying to point something out like a man in the nearby hotel with no pants. I said what "i dont wanna make the car ride home weird" "ok" "can i kiss you" "yes" and we kissed uwu. He kissed different than my ex, he was kinda afraid to use his tongue i guess, my ex always shoved his tongue in my mouth and would like massage it. This kid was more delicate. I felt his teeth too.
It was nice. People passed, one guy goes "O shit theyre havig a moment" to others and starts laughing mashing the elevator down button. Another group nearby kept yelling at us to get a room and going "ewww yucky". The best was my old ROTC teacher. He was laughing at us, super nice and goes "shouldnt you be busy hating life?" (the joke was always I looked pissed off and miserable so he would say that to me). He came back up and told us to leave space for jesus and that it was nice to see me smile for once.
We kissed and hugged, he kept raving about how happy he was. At one point he hugged me from behind and wrapped his hands around my waist, just like my ex did the first time we met. He told me when I gave him the letter that monday almost 2 weeks ago there was something about my smile and the way I tapped his shoulder...a romanticized take of a minor occurance? Has my ex bf written all over it. I think its sweet, I really do. But, there was a time before my ex bf drama when I wasn't so jaded when i would have felt even more special and excited, but now I know its just men being men. Its not actually special.
I guess I dont feel as much as I expected. I am happy, I am happy, I could be happier, but people say I look happy. I am excited, but damn not as much as him he raved about how happy he was and how perfect tonight was. It was a special moment and I am glad it happened but I just dont feel things that deeply anymore. After every breakup I lose more of myself and I just don't have it in me to feel that way it feels like.
The way he looked at me in thr car, the way he acted when he kissed me. It was all like my ex.
we hugged, I smelled his hair. i kissed his neck and his forehead, we just held eachother for a long while. He always asked me if I was comfortable, if this was ok etc. I remember my ex said men who do that are faggy, but it was nice. I liked that he asked, it wasnt a turn off or anything, better than what my ex did.
We went back to his car and were one of the last people left at prom, the parking lot was empty. It was a beautiful night.
We kissed goodbye and hugged.
Now I am here. I cut off my ex after that, didn't tell him what happened because I made the mistake of honesty when I told him I was going to prom in the first place. We were back on our plans to have sex again, we had esex at noon today, but I decided before the prom I should probably cut him off and after I was certain because of my nee situation.
He was so sweet to me. Apparently his whole plan was to go to the bridge afterward and kiss me. When he asked me we were playing this game where you ask questions from a sheet and one was a confession, #28, and I asked that and thats when he asked me to go with him. that was his plan too.
It was nice. He asked me how I am "processing this revelation" and idfk, I just am. He hasn't had a gf since 7th grade, so I guess for him its newer. I am jaded after being a whore so long. I wonder if I was his first kiss. Hes definitely a virgin. I think he had an erection when we were making out.
Well, I am gonna sleep. I am tired. Today was a good day.
P46879
I am here forever.

I FORGOT TO SAY WHILE WE WERE MAKING OUT SOMEONE GOT PROPOSED TO LMFAOOOO

reminds me of the halloween party i went
except i didnt get the royalty treatment bc i lack an extra hole between my legs
also i now see that the meta is to just ask for a kiss
anyway, i was gonna say that good you are finally letting loose irl, but damn bitch, looks like its over for you
the blackpill already fucked up your pleasure receptors
cant even properly enjoy a date anymore
too acutely aware of how animalistic ppl are
literally me

anyway ig thats just the longterm effects of whoredom
damn, having sex with a dude at noon and going on a date with another at night
is your brain really so fried that you need to get double teamed to feel anything?
idk if its ever gonna get better for you tbh

P46967
you're so dissimilar to op it's unreal

P47028
>a fantasy kingdom and had weak, bookish character get his life ruined & set up for a revenge plotline right at the end
sounds like redo of healer
>I apologize if this is the wrong thread, or even the wrong board
lmfao newfaggot
imagine thinking there is such a thing as making new threads or using the right board
sigma chads just post in the first thread on the index
using the catalog is for cucks

i shaved with a straight razor today
its called a straight razor bc thats how straight men shave
this time i didnt cut myself at all
i just had to watch a few yt vids to learn how to do it
the previous times i tried i just did whatevs, but turns out there is some technique to it
proper grip and pressure and angle and shit
nothing hard, like i said, on my first try after seeing the generic straight white males on yt i already managed to do it without skinning myself
but i didnt go all the way through tho
i managed to get a lot of my beard down, but there was a lot of small chunks left
you can imagine i was looking like i just got a fireball to the face
btw i always wondered how ppl get their beard to stay at a fixed size and now i get it
i thought they used scissors or something, but im p sure its possible to do it with a straight razor too
with enough skill, you can control the size you leave
but yea, my random patches
i had to finish shaving using my other, gayer razor
so ig this one counts as bisexual shaving
you know, kinda like being in a mmf threesome and fucking the girl raw in her pussy, but finishing inside your homie's butt bc there is no risk of pregnancy
in this analogy, the risk of pregnancy is the risk of slicing your face right off
and also bc youre just more more used to busting inside your homie bc youre still a faggot but working on it
tbh i think i could have prolly done those small patches too, but i was kinda afraid bc i thought back when i had the beard it was protecting my skin or something
kinda dumb now that i think about, since i was going back and forth
anyway i only really used the straight razor bc my beard was already p big and fluffy, so there was no way the regular faggy shaver would have cut through it
ik bc i have tried before
it can get through, but it takes a long time and also goes completely blunt
meanwhile the straight white sigman razor just cuts right through like a machete chopping overgrowth
anyway how do you shave?
do you even shave?
mahiron prolly shaves to avoid getting beard on his bombs
but idk how he even does that
i doubt he still has the nervous system integrity required to handle a straight razor
and lynn lol i think she is the sort of girl that is hairy af and doesnt give a shit
hairy and stinky armpits, with a very lewd bush on her crotch
have have any of you ever been shaved by a barber
bc i swear that shit is like spa for men
he puts on a hot towel on your face while he sharpens his razor, which is a p comfy moment
then there is the shaving part that lets half your face finally breath
and finally the facial massage with the post-shave lotion
you should try it, if you never have
youll go home feeling like a king
and its not even that expensive tbh
bc its made by men for men
if it was for women theyd be overcharging bc cunts dont give a fuck about their daddy's money and are willing to pay any price for beauty bullshit

>mahiron prolly shaves to avoid getting beard on his bombs
you don't need to go through a laser hair removal to avoid getting hair in your bombs
i once accidentally burned my hair as a kid
that's my favorite method now
shaving is kinda faggy tbh i am not into grooming
i shaved with a straight razor twice in my life but i lost it somewhere when moved out and now i just don't shave
>i doubt he still has the nervous system integrity required to handle a straight razor
nigger my hands work properly unlike you i can handle a soldering iron and blow funny pipes from beer bottles
>lewd bush on her crotch
i used to shave my balls but now it's just too much work
>explains how shaving by a barber feels
you make it sound like it's gayer than gay sex wtf

wtf is this shit about beards

asserting dominance in a thread about women

P46967
>is your brain really so fried that you need to get double teamed to feel anything?
Made a resolve not to become that person, bc i dont wanna be that way and its obviously preventable to some degree because I recognize it
And for th3 first time I can say I feel happier without my ex. I still love him and I still miss him and i don't wanna forget him or let go completely but I am in the mindset where I wanna move on now.
Its a bittersweet feeling I guess, bwcause our relationship was shit and I am glad it is over, but I really thought we were gonna be together forever. We had a lot of plans.
Hes still excited, its really sweet. Idk why he actually likes me, I guess he has watched me for a while because last night he asked me "the story behind that tan jacket you used to wear everyday"
No story, uts just this courdoroy jacket that was my grandpas, way too big on me and made me look manish. I looked ugly in it but I liked that it was oversized and hid my body.
Most days I put on dirty clothes found on the floor and just throw them on. In the summer its better because I cant wear 2xl mens shirts and jeans, so I wear skirts with no underwear, tanktop and light hoodie for comfort but I actually look like I am trying.

...I wrote the above earlier. Its a few hours later now. I went to my grandmas for the day just because I wanted. I felt empty. It was ok. I talked to my ex in the bathroom, he sent me a long letter about why I am a bad person and all the shitty things I did, he was right about most. He lied at first and said he had a new girlfriend, he doesn't he was just talking to some woman who told him to say that to hurt me. I don't want to hear about him with other women. I don't even know her and I already hate her, how dare she stick her nose in business that isn't fucking hers, I hope she chokes and dies, I want to fucking kill her. I cried a lot, I really tried not to because I had fakeup on and didn't want it to run, but I cried hard. In that moment seeing how much he hated me now made me hate myself more. He threatened to tell my new bf about how crazy I am. Eventually he relaxed and told me he loved me and he wanted me to get better, he said I could make up all the shitty things I did to him by getting better, and that he didn't like seeing me suffer That hurt.
He finally recognizes how shitty and abusive I was and all the things I have been telling him, things I wanted him to realize and i am still glad he realizes it but it hurts.
I wanna kms. I am home now, because I started getting anxious at my grandmas. My grandma has noticed something is wrong, she knew when I had been crying and she knew I was anxious when I wanted to leave. I thought maybe I would feel good again in the safety of my bed in the darkness, maybe I was homesick but I still feel empty, because I miss him really badly and I wanna die. I probably should kms before I ruin my new bfs life.
I am gonna try and sleep it off I guess. I'm really miserable right now, I still don't want to be with my ex but I miss him so badly and I want to die.
I guess one thing to look forward to is my new bf, who I can see nearly every day and not have to wait 7 months to make out with and not have to sneak around and hide from my parents.
I'm probably gonna off myself this summer though

P47201
>using razors for shaving
Lmao
Reminds of of yesterday at prom I needed a small purse because usually I carry a giant purse and the small purse I had I used to keep my razors in for skin slicing and I had to frantically empty it beforehand
>and lynn lol i think she is the sort of girl that is hairy af and doesnt give a shit
Most of the time. Getting ready yesterday reminded me that the patriarchy was alive and well when I was being hassled to shave even though my dress was floor length and didn't even show my fucking legs.
I hate shaving so much, I shaved them in the shower and was shaking with rage ranting to myself. I did it because my grandma told me and I did it for her because I love my grandma, but my moms nagging voice in my head going "Men don't like girls with hairy legs" IF I AM GOING TO MARRY A MAN I WANT HIM TO LOVE ME EVEN IF MY LEGS ARE UNSHAVEN AND TO OVERLOOK THAT
the best way to find a man who can overlook leg hair is to never shave instead of tricking them by shaving. Why should I shave? There is no logical reason. Its all fucking brainwashing. My other bf didn't mind me hairy. I feel similarly about fakeup but I still do it on weekends and special occasions just not every day for no reason. I like to lower the bar to "what you see is what you get" so people aren't suprised when I am trash, I need to make that fact obvious. Also if the bar is really low to start all you can do now is impress everyone ajd there is no way to disappoint them. Then my dad jokes ahout divorcing my mom over hairy legs and I am just sitting there in disgust at the state of heterosexual marriages, thrm especially. They make eachother miserable every day then pretend they are a normal couple and make repulsive "ball n chain" jokes which I absolutely despise uts the normalization of loveless sexless miserable marriages.
"dont you want a physical relationship??" Not if it means I have to do a pointl3ss patriarchal beautiy ritual. My fingers are good enough. Also wtf encouraging me to get banged?? Moms are so delusional trying to whore their teen daughters.
"doesnt it feel nice to take care of herself" she actually led with this statement and I looked her in the face and told her shaving is not taking care of yourself because there is NO hygienic benefit, ITS A WASTE OF TIME.
I HATE SHAVING I HATE SHAVING I HATE SHAVING
RAZORS ARE FOR SLICING MY SKIN OPEN TO EXPOSE MY INSIDES
picrel is my arm like 2 months ago uwu.

fuck, lambda is finally back up
now i can manspread all over this thread again
ahem

i did it
i fucking did it
i shaved my cock and balls with a straight razor
and i didnt castrate myself while doing it
damn this feels comfy
it went from extra furry to kinda smooth
theres still a few hairs here and there, but not nearly as bad as when i did on my face bc now im more confident on my skills
also its not like im gonna show off to anyone
im currently typing with one hand bc with the other im fondling my balls
its like playing with marbles on a pouch of... of... idk something smooth and stretchy
lycra?
idk
but has a very nice handfeel
speaking of stretchy, i think this would have been a lot easier if my dick was hard and not super stretchy
but im still kinda sick and havent felt horny in a few days
so yea, i only really gave up before achieving full smoothness bc i got tired of wrestling my own cock and balls
bc its p hard to handle a razor while stretching the skin and getting my meat out of the way at the same time
>tfw no gf to shave me UwU
girls have it so fucking easy ugh lifes unfair
i bet shaving pussy is easy as pie
i bet i could do it perfectly first try
any hot grillz wanna get a free shaving? OwO
i pwomise i wont kiss you coochie too much while doing it uwu
my razor can cut through any fur
btw i didnt even use shaving cream this time
i think its only used as a kind of lubricant so you dont get friction burns on your skin from repeatedly rubbing sharp metal against it
i just used soap instead
bc i didnt know if this was even gonna work and i didnt wanna waste my shaving cream if it didnt
but yea, soap works just as well
i only bought shaving cream once and its still lasting, but i dont think ill buy ever again
ill just use soap now

ok since lambda went down its been a while since i shaved and damn, im still enjoying the comfy feeling
idk why i went so long without shaving, i already forget how nice it is to be able to feel the wind on my balls (im naked in my room with the windows open btw, sigma moment)
like yea ppl have zero excuse to have gross furry pubes tbh
its a bit of work sure, but its not like you gotta shave every fucking day
and taking care of myself feels p nice
i actually considered shaving my legs too, but fuck me right in the ass if i ever do gigafaggot shit like that
i think i have been groomed into becoming a tranny enough recently, tyvm

P47202
>i once accidentally burned my hair as a kid
>that's my favorite method now
oh yea after i burned my arm that one time, i now wonder if just rubbing some acetone on my face and lighting it on fire would be the most efficient way of shaving
have you ever actually tried it?
does it work?
>shaving is kinda faggy tbh i am not into grooming
i used to think so too, but now im too deep into selfcare sissification lmfao
it just feels too nice to stop
i even used some of my moms skin creams afterwards
idk what they do, but sure feel good
also smell nice
shit, is this how the incel->tranny pipeline beings?
>my hands work properly unlike you
wtf are you talking about, nigger?
i can solder shit just fine
and shave myself very well too
>i used to shave my balls but now it's just too much work
yea idk if my enthusiasm for this will last tbh
i used to shave my face every day for a while
then it became every other day
not its when my beard starts feeling too hot
>you make it sound like it's gayer than gay sex wtf
wtf is gay about that?
females can go to spas and have another female massage and caress and worship their feet, making them moan in pleasure while they masterfully work on their soles
but when a dude gives another dude a bro facial massage, its gay somehow?
fuck off
its about time we stood against toxic anti male physical contact
P47204
yea and now watch me do it further by talking about muh kawk

>i already forget how nice
<i always forget how nice
>not its when
<now its only when

>i even used some of my moms skin creams afterwards
i meant when i shaved my face
but yea i put some on my balls too
feels good man

P47216
Pussy shaving is hell
Day one its all smooth and comfy then day 2 it itches like crazy and you get razor bumps and razor burn, its so bad
Absolute nightmare, I only do it when my thigh sweats get real bad

>LRH isn't a loli
too old

>Day one its all smooth and comfy then day 2 it itches like crazy and you get razor bumps and razor burn, its so bad
holy shit i hope its only like that for pussy
i didnt sign up for this shit

P47222
Nah your bollocks will be smooth for like 4 days then the hair will grow in and itch.

P47214
>that person
What person? Dude told you to fuck a stray dog, did you catch that?

P47232
What?

P47233
Upthread, he said
>since youre asking for my input, just take the dogpill
>go /outside/ (scary, ik) find a cute stray mutt and breed it.
That's your advice source?

go easy on the schizobabbling, hikari
youre confusing the poor girl

btw i just made a new light theme based on cirno
now there are 4 themes
ive rigged my script so that this morning its gonna be the light theme used
ill want feedback
also i made a patchy theme too, its being used rn so tell me what you think

P47236
???
Trying to say or imply what?

P47239
imply that i enjoy the validation ppl give me when i add something new to the site
and i never bothered studying the first thing about color theory and yet made 6 color schemes by myself and i wanna know if it looks alright for other ppl or if its jarring
which is why i always ask for feedback when i add something like that
kinda pointless to have a website if its unreadable
personally, i think the new cirno theme is alright
but the yuuka theme remains my favorite

Today I made up a cult using shitty science fiction stories I couldn't get syndicated.

>I hate shaving so much
nigga you purposefully cut your fucking hands to feel pain
can't you stand a little bit of hygiene?
>Why should I shave? There is no logical reason
you are not like the other girls you are retarded
>shaving
>NO hygienic benefit
yeah there's no hygenic benefit in submerging yourself underwater or brushing your teeth either
>but im still kinda sick and havent felt horny in a few days
strange i feel myself hornier when sick because of a higher temperature and boredom
>btw i didnt even use shaving cream this time
ppl unironically use those? they are a meme
>i just used soap instead
like you should
>wonder if just rubbing some acetone on my face and lighting it on fire would be the most efficient way of shaving
>have you ever actually tried it?
you don't need fuel since without it only your hair catches fire
with acetone your entire fucking face will burn off
ppl actually do it
turks love this shit
but normal ppl usually use bitch ass lighters to remove the stray hairs
i just go straight with the blowtorch very very carefully moving it towards the hair
you shouldn't do it slowly btw
it should be very rigid and fast but accurate
it's really fucking hard to remove the hair under your nose that way but that's possible
you can also get burns or just a very irritated skin so prepare some painkillers
>i even used some of my moms skin creams afterwards
>idk what they do, but sure feel good
avoid this shit it's made from napalm that's left from vietnam
>females can go to spas and have another female massage and caress and worship their feet, making them moan in pleasure while they masterfully work on their soles
that's lesbian af
>its about time we stood against toxic anti male physical contact
yeah you are still on the incel stage you have chances
>holy shit i hope its only like that for pussy
>i didnt sign up for this shit
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
but yeah itches from shaving your balls are really uncomfy
i heard it's even worse when you shave your ass but i haven't tried (yet)

yeah just shaved myself with a blowtorch again
burned hair smells like shit btw and it's not really that smooth
but you don't even need soap just some gas and water
can be finished in less than a minute and looks ok ig that the speed is the main benefit
i do this because all the other methods require actual preparations and aftercare
finish stray hairs with a normal lighter and you will be like an asian

P47245
stfu you belong in an assylum

and your fakeness is so disgustingly obvious. you can text wall brag about how le evil you are only once per person.

P47256
this guy looks very familiar
he also looks like the canonical butcher
that's who i picture in my head when i hear the word butcher
it's also funny to imagine that pig is alive and just gives zero fucks
>stfu you belong in an assylum
you meant asylum? or an actual ASSylum
if the cells are shared than i need an express ticket to this shit ASAP
>and your fakeness is so disgustingly obvious
jokes on you i am just pretending to be retarded
>how le evil you are
tfw i am the kindest fucking soul in this thread
the fucking epitome of sanity
OP is a BPD infested retarded cunt that orchestrates thousands of cocks just to feel something
>you can text wall brag
>only once per person
dam out of my textwall bragging good boy points already?

P47257
mmhmm and 2 + 2 = -300 , P47249 image looks nothing like someone sucking a bloody tampon etc

>someone sucking a bloody tampon
sounds hot af

P47259
off you go and do it then

i am more into forcing other ppl to suck bloody tampons

I wanted to go out an buy the shit i needed today but fucking christcucks are celebrating some new bullshit and everything is closed

P47257
>this guy looks very familiar
Viktor Orban, Hungarian prime minister. Probably heard about him or seen him because of constant EU kvetching.

Aggghhhhh I saw my new bf this morning at breakfast and we kissed a bunch
Its so awesome being able to kiss my bf on a regular basis
He came and sat next to me, we just kept staring at eachother and laughing while holding hands, and we kept squeezing our hands rhythmically and being weird.
Then he came in closer and wrapped his arm around me. He was gonna bump my nose but I thought he was gonna kiss me, but he wasnt and he said "we can kiss" and then we kissed multiple times agghhhh
We walked to class together and I get to see him in 3 hours aaaa
I was so excited all morning for this and after school hopefully I can go to his house, he is so happy and so am I
He seems more experienced for not having a gf in 4 years, well not experienced but not shy about affection. Man thing?

>nigga you purposefully cut your fucking hands to feel pain
>can't you stand a little bit of hygiene?
nah you dont get it
its all to fight the patriarchy
and the social expectation that women do not smell like rotten eggs
>you are not like the other girls you are retarded
epic burn dude
ill be sure to remember this for future use
>strange i feel myself hornier when sick because of a higher temperature and boredom
higher temp?
fever is actually supposed to make you feel cold
bc your body temp rises and your nerves are calibrated to notice when you are losing heat
and being hotter you will be losing a lot more heat to the environment
but yea i sometimes felt hot too, idek how tf that works tbh
>ppl unironically use those? they are a meme
yea like i said, i only bought once bc i wasnt sure what it was needed for
only that it was needed
it was my first time shaving myself at the time
after my beard started growing as a teenager i still went several years without shaving
then i only did it in barbers every several months
>you don't need fuel since without it only your hair catches fire
yea that makes sense
>ppl actually do it
i looked it up on yt and yea they really do lmfao
tho its not nearly as insane as what you described
more like a finishing touch
and yea most dudes doing it were turkish
>you can also get burns or just a very irritated skin so prepare some painkillers
cdda moment
>avoid this shit it's made from napalm that's left from vietnam
but it feeeels gooooooood :(
if you can use brainrot bc it feels good, why cant i use skinrot for the same reason?
>itches from shaving your balls are really uncomfy
i dont get it
why would it even itch?
i dont get anything like this when i shave my face
so why would my balls be different?
>yeah just shaved myself with a blowtorch again
how satisfying it is?
bc mowing down fur feels p satisfying
and if the burning is done in 5 secs, idk if you can properly enjoy the moment
>he also looks like the canonical butcher
>that's who i picture in my head when i hear the word butcher
i think you meant platonic butcher
thats the ideal butcher that only exists in the realm of ideas
any butchers irl are merely manifestations of that guy
>it's also funny to imagine that pig is alive and just gives zero fucks
lol it is
>the fucking epitome of sanity
in a place like this, it doesnt mean much tbh

>fever is actually supposed to make you feel cold
if your body generates sufficent amount of heat in the first place
with a stock pulse of 30 finally feeling warmth again when sick is like a blessing
>barbers every several months
i hated barbers so fucking much as a kid i learned to cut my hair myself
>if you can use brainrot bc it feels good, why cant i use skinrot for the same reason?
you can
no one is going to stop you
in fact ppl will encourage you to groom yourself
but the cancer to feel good ratio isn't really efficient imo
>shaved with a blowtorch
>how satisfying it is?
it's kinda painful and stingy and smells really bad
i just do it to not look like a homeless bum
>tho its not nearly as insane as what you described
it's not insane at all
idk why ppl treat it like it's amputating your fingers or something
sticking super sharp blades to your throat is fine but using perfectly hygienic blowtorches is something utterly insane

P46960
P47274
>Man thing?
I think it's normal for men to love and appreciate you very much and feel very blessed and humbled and so on, and to be very affectionate and not shy about affection, even if they seem shy in general. Men (if they're romantically normal) fall in love very quickly and completely. Girls are the same, but it's harder to observe it in its natural and unadulterated form because of internalised slut-shaming, in cultures where, unfortunately, there's this pressure to put on a certain image and hide certain things.

>We are whores but we hide it because of the social pressure
understandable

P47274
You could have had them both simultaneously if you had not told your previous bf some of the detail until he asked.

P47295
>muh whores this and that
>referring to normal everyday life
I can't take anyone seriously when they're talking like that, it's ridiculous. But very common.

P47296
Maybe

>I can't take anyone seriously
ur not supposed to dum dum

P47293
>a stock pulse of 30
isnt the pulse supposed to be like 70?
>i hated barbers so fucking much as a kid i learned to cut my hair myself
same but i just didnt cut my hair at all
>but the cancer to feel good ratio isn't really efficient imo
neither it is for snorting coke and meth
>sticking super sharp blades to your throat is fine but using perfectly hygienic blowtorches is something utterly insane
yea bc the blade doesnt hurt you unless youre a retard
the blowtorch burns you no matter what
how have you not developed fire resistance yet anyway?

P47294
stfu transgalatic cuckold
only bluepilled niggers who unironically believe all w*men are pure angels would instantly fall in love just bc a girl kissed him one night (right after gaggling the semen of her main bf)
"romantically normal" there means cucked and retarded
anyone with a teensy little bit of knowledge about women knows they are inherently and irredeemably sluts who are incapable of love and will replace you with her next walking wallet in less than a week after she realizes you wont be providing for her anymore
and no, girls are not the same
they will need a very clear confirmation that you are a controllable slave who will do her every bidding before she 'falls in love' (read: starts giving you breadcrumbs of affection) with you

P47295
same with me when i see a mesugaki
picrel

P47296
cuntoids have no self control when it comes to gossip

anyway day 2 of shaved balls
still comfy
still no itch

oh yea and i stopped having dreams about bombs
so i can go back to writing about it again

>isnt the pulse supposed to be like 70?
yeah but your heart begins to slow down when you are abusing your body
>but the cancer to feel good ratio isn't really efficient imo
>neither it is for snorting coke and meth
i think it's p efficient
>how have you not developed fire resistance yet anyway?
i haven't got any burns in years despite my anti-OSHA sugma grindset
sounds wild but retard that uses acetylene to shave has zero burns on his face

P47257
>this guy looks very familiar
He's Orbán Viktor, the Hungarian PM, leading the 2/3rd parliament majority with 50% of the nation's vote. Pig slaughter has a big tradition in Hungary and it still occurs in the rural part of the country. The whole household gets together, round up and kill the pig, and then we have several kilos of meat products. We eat, we pack some away and everyone goes to sleep filled and happy.
A completely different story than Western large-scale animal farming.

HOLLY FUCKING BASED WHAT A CHAD

that pic is what lynn looks like in my head
except hairier and fatter and no socks
>yeah but your heart begins to slow down when you are abusing your body
ok but damn
thats less than half the normal rate
>i think it's p efficient
you need to post a drug acquisition/production tutorial too
>anti-OSHA
tf?
>acetylene
tf?

P47315
yea id like put her in my mouth and nibble

btw im almost ready to beat taisei for real now
i have been training
i can relaibly complete stages 1 and 2 without bombs
and stages 3 and 4 without losing lives
if i can git gud at stage 5, then i can just spam all my accumulated bombs on the final boss until she dies
but i gotta sleep now
ill ttyl

P47245
Shaving is NOT hygene. BODY HAIR IS NOT DIRTY.
The scars of the patrarchy are deeper, more painful, and longer lasting than any way I can cut myself. And my adherence to toxic beauty standards effects other women too, be slicing my arms effects me and me only.
P47294
The PDA makes me feel awkward but not enough that I don't wanna stop kissing him bc kissing him is epic. At lunch we were kissing and some people yelled "ew" at us lol
Hes so sweet to me. Going to his house in 6 mins xd
>internalised slut-shaming,
bc sluts are fucking gross
P47296
No
also my last bf is evil and i dont wanna be with him
my new bf says he has a feeling this will be a good relationship and god I hope so

>that pic is what lynn looks like in my head
picrel is how i imagine her
>you need to post a drug acquisition/production tutorial too
lots of pharma shit for precursors or plain overdosing varies very significantly in different countries but yeah i think i should write some guides on ephedrone and proper filtration/purification because it's the most important step and almost everyone fucks it up
most of the deaths from drugs come from shitty quality
source trust me bro i saw statistic while eating shrooms
>thats less than half the normal rate
that's a p normal "resting" heart rate the fucky fucky comes when you can't raise it with excercise or it raises so high you begin to suffocate
>anti-OSHA
OccupationalSafety and HealthAdministration
funny american guys that try to make sure that working conditions on factories aren't so bad that all the workers die
they are basically a meme at this point taxing the most retarded equipment shortage of useless shit like lighters but turning a blind eye on uncertified industrial alpinists crawling inside of a working heavy machinery with a heat signature of 90 degrees
>acetylene
damn it's pretty popular
funny flammable gas that people use for gas welding sometimes it explodes
i am not really into welding
because i kinda suck at it and most of the metals that i work with aren't really susceptible to welding
thank god that welding is so easy even a retard like me got it right on the first try
gas welding is also cool because it's not so bright and ppl that gas weld usually avoid becoming crippled moles with -11 eyesight
oh yeah also acetylene is made by throwing carbide rocks into water
you can easily buy a SHITLOAD of those i have literal bags in my house
they can react with the water in atmosphere tho you should store them carefully or your house will fucking explode in the middle of a night UwU
considering that the oxygen is also fucking free that's the cheapest method to weld
well now electrodes are becoming really fucking cheap too but carefully manufactured multilayered rods that undergo extensive quality control can't compete with a bunch of rocks someone found in a swamp

i wasn't shaving with acetylene btw
i used some shitty isomer of butane with an unpronounceable name that they sell as a gas for recharging lighters
considering how fucking good uranian descriptions of product contents are it can as well be a normal fucking butane or a fucking methane they sincerely give zero fucks
but probably an actual isomer of butane i kinda learned to recognize smells
well whatever there are so fucking much impurities nowdays it can be anything

>BODY HAIR IS NOT DIRTY
it gathers sweat and the sweat is p fucking dirty
>The scars of the patrarchy are deeper
this is blatant shitposting i am not even going to read further

>https://nl.wikipedia.org/wiki/Carbidschieten
>The carbide canon is a Dutch tradition that consists in producing explosions in containers from calcium carbide.

>Calcium carbide is put into a milk jug, a pot of paint or a gas bottle. Then, the container is wet and closed with its lid or a ball. The acetylene that forms is ignited from a small hole and explodes with a loud noise. The lid or the ball is thus ejected and can fly over several tens of meters.
>To obtain bigger explosions, some people use larger containers, such as modified slurry tanks.

Holy fuck, that looks awesome!

P47330
P47331
P47333
P47337
no one gives a fuggle

P47328
You're right about body hair.

>sluts are fucking gross
"slut" is misogynistic when used as an insult.

P47328
Alright, let's do this.
>Shaving is NOT hygene
True. It's aesthetics. Vanity, even.
>The scars of the patrarchy

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>At lunch we were kissing and some people yelled "ew" at us lol
That was probably me.
>also my last bf
>my new bf
Whore.

P47343
>"slut" is misogynistic

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P47381
shut up uphmed

Went to my new bfs house after school UwU
I got in his car and we drove to his house, he told me some kid who I have been in school with since kindergarten said he knew me. We got there and when we got in we started kissing and hugging, for like an hour we just kinda stood around kissing and hugging eachother, nothing major but super nice. We talked in between, he is very silly when he is happy which makes me happy, sometimes its much but I am like that at home a lot and thought "god if anyone i liked saw me theyd be annoyed" but its nice he is like that too because it makes me feel comfortable and its cute. I think its a little tiring just because of having to read him, idk, I can't sit with a blank look on my face so I have to be responsive always, its more effort than I am used to.
He told me that kid at school said I was a freak, and he said that it wasn't necessarily a bad thing and I told him it was definitely meant as a bad thing and true. I kinda alluded at what a piece of shit I used to be but I also told him I stabbed my dad because he talks to a lot of people. I guess most people consider themselves "unpopular" if they aren't in a play/football star/student council or win a literal popularity contest like homecoming or prom. But he isn't unpopular, he knows a good deal of people where I know no one. He works with another kid from my middle school who I remember losing it on in art class because he said some dumb shit.
Anyway I ended up telling him the story of when I stabbed my dad, nothing super detailed because I knew he'd likely hear it from someone, its my most memorable anecdote I suppose. I wanted to be honest I guess. He saif he got it, and that he didn't think I was at fault, but ik if he really got it he would blame me. Bc the story I always say is less detailed, just the gist. I always say it was because my mom was crying for help but it was actually because I wanted power, I wanted to feel in control for once, bc it sucks so badly when your dad can just whip your ass and you lose every fight and have no control over your life. It wasn't because my parents got in a fight it was a culmination of bullshit and if that bullshit hadn't culminated I wouldn't have done what I did.
But he said he understood.
Well, eventually he offered to cuddle, and I had flashbacks to the first time I was with my ex and he offered to "cuddle" and immediately climbed on me and kissed me and I lost my virginity not even an hour after I had my first kiss. I know cuddling never means cuddling now. We kissed a lot in his bed, it was really nice.at first we were laying on our sides but then he was kinda on top of me kissing me, it was really nice i loved it so much omg. At one point I accidently started saying "i love you" but stopped in the middle of love and then buried my face in his neck and exclaimed "im sorry!"
He kept pestering me for like 10 straight minutes in between kissing me to tell him what I meant, what I was gonna say.
I didnt mean it, it was habit to say that when my ex kissed me like that, i dont know what I was thinking. But i cant go back and say "uhh actually I don't love you". But its crazy, we've only talked like 2 weeks! He didn't say it back at first. A lot of kissing and stuff later and he did eventually, but I know he doesn't. He felt like he had to say it because I did, and he is just excited because everything was new and unbelievable. He doesn't love me, he is infatuated. I wish me and my ex didn't make saying I love you a habit or a greeting. I don't want that to lose meaning, and I am gonna avoid saying it again unless I really truely mean it.
At one point he asked "hypothetically what if I rolled you over on top of me to make out?"
"then we would make out?"
then he flips me on top of him and we kissed like that for basically the rest of the time, he really preferred me on top. I didn't mind being on top it was pretty hot but I prefer being on bottom. He said "Im thinking some pretty unholy thoughts right now" and I asked "what"
he went back and forth and wouldnt tell me so I asked "well, why did you tell me if you dont want me to know, do you want me to ask"
"yeah but i dont wanna be weird"
Eventually he asked to touch my boobs and I let him, he also touched my ass a lot, asked to of course. He would like smack it and it felt nice, he kept asking why and it felt embarassing. It made me twitch a lot because I guess I am still not used to being touched that way, I remember when he kissed me at prom and touched my back i would tense up a lot.
I could feel his boner underneath me a lot. He was shirtless and eventually asked to see my boobs, I said yes and I undressed. He asked about my arms, he asked "are those stretch marks"
"uh no"
they obviously aren't. Maybe he is clueless maybe he realized and just didn't ask more. I will tell him if he asks what exactly happened to my arms. Hopefully the scar that says "I hate you" will fade, I carved it to mess with my ex, I also have his name carved in my leg. I didn't take my skirt off so he didn't see.
he squeezed my boobs and rubbed the nipples, asked if it felt nice, and idk, it did but I wasn't super reactive, I didnt wanna start moaning like a pornstar or something.
I like kissing his neck, eventually it became kind of a game where I would try and catch him off guard and kiss his neck. When I would really kiss his neck he would start squirming under me and it was really amazing and adorable lol.
He is super skinny, it makes me kinda insecure bc I am 170 and he is 115, but I like skinny men a lot lol. I like feeling his bones and seeing their definition.
He is a virgin, he told me.
Eventually we got dressed because my mom told me to be home at 7, and it was 630. He drove me home, I felt kinda bad he had to but I didn't wanna have my mom pick me up.
The car ride was kinda quiet, I guess I was worn out and just in thought. We both agreed on the ride and later on to go slower, because we got kinda out of hand. I regret going as far as I did with him but it was nice, and I wanna wait at least 2 months to have sex with him, 1 month to go beyond what we did today. I was honest and said I went too fast with my last bf and I regretted it the rest of our relationship and he understood. We are gonna meet friday when my family goes out camping, his dad works again (his schedule is 24 hours on then 72 hours off) and it is also the first day of summer. I am excited and I like seeing him, he's very sweet, very funny and goofy in an adorable way, he is very smart and I like him a lot. I wish I was slower, I wish I hadnt gone so far and I wish I didn't let "I love you" slip out. But its not too late, I can learn. Right?
Right??
Tbh in the back of my mind I just think about what an evil piece of shit I am and how I should leave him so he doesn't have to deal with me or how I should kill myself. But I don't have the self control for that or the heart to let him down right now.
I wanna do something nice, suggestions are welcome. He bought me a chocolate bar before, I asked him what candy he liked and apparently its kit kats so I might get him some of those but I don't wanna just copy him.
He really thinks he got lucky with me, he thinks I am gorgeous and talks about how pretty I am all the time. Its actually the opposite though. I am ugly and lucky to have him.
I always thought he was cute, not long before he gave me his letter I was takin creepshots of him reading sending them to people because I thought he was hot. Weird yes and maybe a little unethical.
I like how he dresses, wears a fire department jacket and jeans and a tshirt every day. He said people call his style boring but he dresses EXACTLY how I like. He one day had sunglasses on and said people say they look dorky, I love men in sunglasses. His hair is very soft and I love stroking it.

I talked to my ex this morning. It had some gravity but not enough I feel like getting into detail. He is talking to other women, it makes me angry, mostly because these whores are butting into our business when they don't even know what they are talking about. Maybe I still feel a little possessive over him, but tbh I want him to move on. We fought, argued about who did what wrong, about sex and everything. In the end he unfriended me and said if I am happy with my new bf, he wants me to be happy. And thats that.
I miss him but less so. I think that's it. I probably forgot something but whatever.

P47330
I don't look like that but if i did it would be pretty hot tho ngl
I am 5'8 kinda chubby 170 lbs
Short brown hair almost to my chin and bangs that need trimmed
Id classify my eyes as round, but the top lid is droopy making me look tired and my eyes smaller, my nose is aqualine I think, high cheekbones (idk how to deacribe my body I have been trying to decode what my body and my features are like but its hard to tell what i look like)
34DDD boobies
Kinda get acne but overall clear skin, kinda pale
short torso I would say, large hands (i notice my hands are always larger than other peoples, both of my bfs deapite them being basically the same height)
I would say my limbs are long?

was just watching american psycho clips and realized i kinda look like patrick bateman genderbent

P47330
>picrel is how i imagine her
lol not even close
too hot and too shaved
also thin but thick thighs
its all wrong
lynn is fat but has a shitty ass
so she has thick thighs, but not that sexy kinda thick, more like that masculine kinda thick (not from muscle, but from pure fat)
also shes gross and hairy
the only thing that redneck marisa has in common with her is the messy hair and bitchy attitude
now look at this pic
hairy, chubby, saggy tits, lazy vibe
even the character description is literally her
plus her bed is disgusting like lynn's
>guides on ephedrone and proper filtration/purification
yea how to care for that plant and extract the funny chems it produces
>that's a p normal "resting" heart rate
nah
no fucking way its normal to have 30 bpm when youre awake
thats like 2 secs between each heart beat wtf
thats some severe bradycardia right there
i looked it up and nope its not normal
even the world record for lowest heart rate is 26 bpm
>funny american guys that try to make sure that working conditions on factories aren't so bad that all the workers die
yea there is a whole larp about humans right but obviously its just bc they cant let all the working class die off or else their entire wagie-based economy will collapse
>funny flammable gas that people use for gas welding sometimes it explodes
oh damn, and they just sell that to anyone?
ig its like cooking gas
do you use that too?
idek that it was possible to weld with gas
i only ever welded with electrode before
>you should store them carefully or your house will fucking explode
<storing explosives inside the house
>explode in the middle of a night UwU
lol
P47331
>i wasn't shaving with acetylene btw
and what about your pubes?
did you flamenwerfer your balls too?
P47333 (trips of based)
>it gathers sweat and the sweat is p fucking dirty
just let princess stinky over there cope in peace
>this is blatant shitposting i am not even going to read further
based
idek why shes still posting on our thread tbh
ig she really likes when multiple males pile up on her and treat her like shit
the little attention whore

P47337
>calcium carbide
>carbide
damn just how many wack radical names do they have?
god went a bit overboard with organic chemistry tbh
it is insanely bloated
didnt need to have so many compounds
also what language is that article even written in?
>Nedersaksies
are you from the fucking netherlands?
who tf are you?
and why is there no english translation of that?
i had to read the french one
>The acetylene that forms is ignited from a small hole and explodes with a loud noise.
mahiron has taught me so many autistic ways to trigger a bomb that when i read that the first thing that came to mind was someone screaming at a milk jug to make it explode
then i realized that 'with a loud noise' prolly referred to 'explodes' not 'ignited' lmao

P47340
shut it, shitstain
[bold: i] give a fuggle
and you dont get to come to MY thread and talk to MY 2nd bestie like that

P47343
>"slut" is misogynistic when used as an insult.
but being one is even more misogynistic
bc the slut is treating herself (a femoid) as an object

P47371
yea making bombs requires a certain level of intelligence and motor skills (so you dont drop shit on the floor and blow your legs off)
both of which foids lack
so getting funny chemicals to make arts and craft with is too hard for them
getting on their knees to suck cock and balls instead is more on their level

P47387
well damn
it basically confirms the pic i just posted

time to settle this. This is me

>picture for ants
try again, hole

i think i my touhou trannification is reaching dangerous levels
i have started to look up touhou vids and memes
and now i want a fumo
but they are expensive af
but dont seem that complicated to make tbh
i think ill just ask my grandmother to teach how to sew
i can only learn things if i have a purpose to developing the skill
and this seems like just the thing to motivate me
then ill spend the rest of my days making dolls lol
just gotta pick which 2hoe to base the doll on
there is also a doujin anime
damn, thats so terabased omfg
apparently it didnt even have voice acting
then another group fandubbed it in japanese
i love communities like this tbh
reminds of tf2
havent played in years, but i still love tf2
ok im gonna watch that anime
somebody stop me
please
nvm
its too late
i already watched the first ep
its over
i can feel it in my chromosomes
im being trannified
aauuhghhghghsakdjfnasjghsasdngafhgkdfahglksn nooooo not my yyyyyyy
i have decided
ill make a patchouli fumo

>The carbide canon is a Dutch tradition
Dutch tradition? wtf
here we do the same but it's a tradition among retarded children
>even the world record for lowest heart rate is 26 bpm
amateurs
my heart rate is around 40 sometimes it drops lower sometimes it's even relatively normal
>oh damn, and they just sell that to anyone?
it's used strictly by welders and no one else but they often sold it to kids knowing that they are going to loose their fingers
>do you use that too?
obviously
>i only ever welded with electrode before
gas welding is the OG method
piss easy can weld almost anything
even better for cutting
also not as bright and requires way less equipment and materials
also you have to work with basically a flamethrower really funny
>storing explosives inside the house
those aren't explosives
like they do explode but that's a non desirable quality
they are like a gas stove you know
you can use methane for explosives too
>did you flamenwerfer your balls too?
i am not that insane
i also heard that exposing your balls to high temperatures is bad for sperm production
not like my kids having any chances of not becoming utterly retarded
>and you dont get to come to MY thread and talk to MY 2nd bestie like that
gay af tbh you need to tone down
>yea making bombs requires a certain level of intelligence and motor skills (so you dont drop shit on the floor and blow your legs off)
it's more about a flaming desire to learn unpractical shit and imaginary insects torturing you in bed every day that you don't learn anything
and like motor skills lol lmao
well yeah lab safety is important and there are lots of dumb ways in which you can fuck up that sway off with experience but motor skills aren't that important
testosteronlets are just not as violent and have more cringe self-preservation instincts
>picture
lmfao tf is with your neck and chin
and are those egg cartons and pizza boxes?

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>trannification is reaching dangerous levels
sure is
>and now i want a fumo
environmental hazard at this point
>but dont seem that complicated to make tbh
ppl who make them say that they aren't
but only one way to find out
yk how fucking much dough custom fumo makers make?
jewelers can only dream of those fat stacks of cash
only furfags can compete
>there is also a doujin anime
something something phantasm is kinda cringe and boring though just copypastes the plot of 6th gaem kinda cool to learn the plot and familiarize yourself with the characters if you are a newfag
but still kinda bad i didn't like it for some superficial reason

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I love your look, your boobs are really nice and big that's a good full size and I love when a girl has ashort torso and long limbs, that's the hottest.

I just woke up and now I am absolutely horrified at yesterdays events
12 hrs ago I was makin out shirtless with a boy I met only 2 weeks ago wtf is wrong with me I like him but now I am afraid to see him a little this morning
aagghh
Apparently I come off strong, yesterday he said that at prom he didn't expect to tongue kiss that he thought it would just be a peck but then I stuck my tongue in his mouth lolll
wtf thats just how I kiss and I thought thats what I was supposed to do bc his lips were parted ahhhh
So yeah clearly I am the experienced one in this relationship where it was the opposite before
my ex bf literally ruined me lol i am forever tainted
Funnily enough my cousin had the same thing to say about when his gf first kissed him...except he told his mom whichni thought was kinda weird, and then his mom told grandma and grandma told me. Weird mamas boy.

omg I just realized this is the first bf of mine who is not obscenely older or online, infact he is a couple months younger!
We were 12 and 14
We were 15 and 21
We were 15/16 and 20
We were 16/17 and 22/23/24
But now we are 17 and 17 :)

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>lmfao tf is with your neck and chin
Zooming in close to look at my pic I see?
Wdym "what is wrong with your neck and chin" THEY ARE COVERED BY THE PHONE LMAP
>and are those egg cartons and pizza boxes?
Not just random trash around my bedroom, I have not cleaned in almost 4 years, its pretty bad

Anyway I talked to him this morning it was nice, we kissed only once though bc I guess we both felt awkward, but he said after laying on his back with me on top of him at hurt lol. I love kissing him still and he smells nice.
Yes I crush boys with my giant body apparently
I need to get my head in the game my conversation was lacking today, we have walking club. It might rain so we would have to inside but still nice and I am excited, too bad its in 2 hours
Conversation topics jdeas are welcome

>Zooming in close to look at my pic I see?
there's no need to zoom in
it's like three on two pixels in resolution
your neck is fucking huge
>THEY ARE COVERED BY THE PHONE LMAP
if your face is symmetric one half covers won't mean much
>Conversation topics jdeas are welcome
industrial revolution and it's consequences

>scans over my picture with a fine tooth comb
>can't find anything wrong bc I am perfect and sexy uwu
>"u-ur neck looks weird!!"
My neck is perfect.
>one half covers won't mean much
Much more than one half of my neck is covered.

omg I just realised
ugly girls have it way easier than pretty girls
because pretty girls will get hit on by men who don't want them for anything but their looks, or men will subconsciously overlook their flaws because they are pretty
And that is no foundation for a lasting parasitic relationship (marriage)
So if a girl wants to make sure her man will really stick around she has to be ugly. If she is ugly she knows with certainty that
A) Her personality and attributes are the reason this man is around
B) If not A, then he is not good enough to get a pretty girl meaning that the ugly girl is the best he can do and she knows she owns him bc he has no other option
Pretty girls have it way harder. They have to sift through men who only want them for looks.
Also ugly privilege exists, we all know hot feminine women are seen as frivolous and dumb, like the bimbo stereotype of a dumb as rocks girl but is hot with gigantic boobs so men like her and she doesn't even realize she is being used. I guess its because people like balance, people think "well she can't be hot and smart, because that's too many attributes" so they automatically stereotype her as dumb because her hotness is instantly obvious, to tell if she is smart they have to talk to her which they can't do because men brain go mushy when confronted with hotness. They try and balance it so everyone has the same amount of attributes and weaknesses when people just aren't made equal. Also a cope by others who think "well whatever shes pretty but shes dumb so it doesn't matter".
Uggo girls are treated more serious because they think "oof she looks like shit, but she has to have something going for, she must be smart or competant" and because the men don't get horny around her their brains don't turn to mush and they can realize she is actually smart.
Uggo girls are way more privilaged than pretty girls. Marylin Monroe is a prime example. She was actually very intelligent but because she was pretty thats all people saw and being a sex symbol destroyed her so she kysed herself.
Pretty girls are people too

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Isn't it more like fags try to tell themselves girls are ugly, in order to deal with the regret of being fags

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